Cravings - Worried about crack relapse

[Cybi]

Swim hasn't used crack for four months. This is the first time swim has managed to stop using it, for any real length of time.

Swim started using crack daily when her husband was working away. Swim knows that her husband being at home has helped her to stay clean. She isn't doing it for her husband, swim is most definatley doing it for her own self worth BUT when swim is lonley and life bites, she is very aware that is when she finds herself with a phone in her hand and cash in her pocket. (swim deleted the numbers but realised she had memorised it and it isn't easy to erase anything from your memory)

Swim is hoping that being aware of her triggers will go a long way to helping her through.
If anyone or there cats have any advice how to make it through a lonley, long night please share them with swim.

[yaba]

Swim has been addicted to most drugs and kicked most of them including crack,heroine and yaba/meth. He knows where your friend is coming from. The thing is what helped swim was the thought of the comedown and the comedown will always happen.. This has helped him with both crack and coke but not with heroine and yaba/meth he will always have a weakness for them.

If you think about it every time, this will be the last time... But it never is ! And how does your friend fell after a 3/4 day bender ??? And for the dealers phone number swim always memories them as he was calling them so often.

The last few times swim took coke it remind him of the past and made him feel worse then ever ! He couldn't stand it now or maybe he is getting old, but the feeling after a 3/4 day binge.. Horrible swim thinks. Keep that in mined before making the phone call as your friend will always run out of money or crack. Not sure if your friend is one of them but the paranoia... Looking true the curtains, under doors, and one swim used to do in hotel rooms look true the peek hole. At least swim had a friends who had the money and means to have a crack party and told him, don't ever look at the floor !!!! If you drop something you will know about it. They also told him don't get your own pipe but swim did get his own pipe and he got worse from then on...

Once your friend stopped for 4 months it would be a shame to start it again and be back to square one. And life as a crack addict isn't fun. It will drag most people down, it did so to swim. All the best hope your friend isn't going to start using again.

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Supportive, good to remind OP about how it was.

[Spare Chaynge]

quit rolling around in that giant ball of self pity. Everyone is alone sometimes. Crack because you are lonely...what next.

[Cybi]

Originally Posted by Spare Chaynge

quit rolling around in that giant ball of self pity. Everyone is alone sometimes. Crack because you are lonely...what next.

Swim thinks she is being pro-active by posting her worries and not being at all self pitying. Swim has in the past scored because she cut her finger and sees lonleyness as a much bigger trigger than a paper cut ever was.

Swim is bothered that she is viewed as rolling around in a giant ball of self pitty. Swim, obviously wrongly, assumed that others would struggle with similar situations.

[missparkles]

Cybi has got through four months...that's brilliant. Regardless of why she used she's clean now, Crack addiction is ruthless and so difficult to stop, Cybi doesn't wanna go back there. As Yaba said think about how she was before she quit, how fuckin' awful she felt.
Sparkles knows Cybi is doing it for herself, but look around...go on take a damn good look...see what she has now, a nice home, an adorable husband.
She could lose it all...everything.
Sparkles would advise anyone with drug cravings to do something...go for a walk(leave the cash at home) exercise...anything, just stay occupied. Cravings do go, everyone gets em, regardless of the drug they were addicted to, and they get less the longer a person is clean.
It's good to ask for support...sensible, not asking is fuckin' dangerous. Well done love.
Sparkles.

[Spare Chaynge]

swim was not trying to be mean...just honest. You have done this right thing and 4 months off of crack is amazing. Swim often used drugs to deal with loneliness or the pain of the past and basically he just needed to man up and deal with it. The human mind is a powerful thing and often people in recovery tend to deny that..this is why they fail so much. swim is the opposite he believes if you do not want to smoke crack you wont..

So try and not smoke crack. Keep and mind that you are perfectly capable of this. The same way you are capable of not eating fast food or something.. Post back if their is any trouble during the lonely periods. Keep in mind that being lonely is perfectly normal and everyone on earth goes through it at sometimes... Try and get involved in activities that will keep your mind from running circles.. video games, books, tv, walking, running, exercise of any kind. Friends might be a good idea to.. Get out doors.

try and you will succeed

[yaba]

Swim knows its easy to look for an escape with any kind of drugs. And if crack the drugs of choice then it would be most likely crack to turn to again... But remember the reason swiy wanted to stop. If swiy didn't want to stop she wouldn't have done so. And trying to replace it with something more positive would make a lot of sense !

Nobody here would judge your friend even if she is going back to using again, but its like your friend was saying she wants to do it for herself not for her husband. And if a drug user wants to stop for him/her self it has the best chance of success !!!

Not being judgmental but crack is hard to control and once into it its a bugger to stop... Not saying other drugs aren't but crack and methamphetamine can really fuck someone up. Even more so then with other drugs.. Thats swims opinion and he has been a drug user for 17 years. It would be better to have a joint or MDMA then crack. Its a lot less harmful specially in the long run.

Not trying to make out swim is an angel now and has stopped his drug use and is trying to tell someone whats bad and whats good. Trust me swim is still a naughty boy at times and he will go for the booze, benzo's, alcohol, dihydrocodeine, methadone and even sometimes heroine when he is going true a shit time... But he is trying to be good(ish) and not use heroine (IV) But he will never ever be a crack head or a full time heroine user ever again !!!! A lot of things are better to control then crack, heroine, methamphetamine they are the worse in swims opinion.. A joint doesn't course to much trouble neither does MDMA in swims opinion. But not using anything is the best thing for you ! And swim is slowly finding that out... All the best to you !