Cravings - Gotta stop, but there's no other options!

[cra$h]

Swim is probably going to be drug tested tomorrow by the court of law, and that's why he can't get high anymore. And of course he's browsing through facebook (first time in months) sees the girl of his former dreams, and just wants to die. One thought leads to another, and it's just getting worse and worse and worse and worse. This is nothing new though. And this is why he self medicates with opiates. Swim doesn't care about all the negitives, and trust me he's seein them and it's making it only worse, but still better than death. What do you swimmers do when you simply can't get high, and that craving is just unbearable?

[ex-junkie]

swim made a scrap book, and inside it she put all sorts of things to help to keep her focused. pictures of musical instruments that she desired, pictures of loved ones, pictures of herself in happier times, verses from get well cards that her family had sent her throughout the years whilst she was in detox/rehab, pictures of funny things that made her smile, and in the back of the scrapbook she wrote down all the reasons why she wanted to get clean/stay clean. it really helped her to get through the toughest times towards the end of her addiction, and without that little book, she doubts she would have had the motivation for success.

failing that she would take a few promethazine tablets and/or clonidine.

[MisterV]

There are several options for SWIM:

- he cries
- he hurts himself
- he tries to get a legal high with some medication

The first two options were a bad time for SWIM but he learned a lot and now he can control himself better!

[cra$h]

all the legal ones swim actually has is all psychedelic. Swim just needs something to get away. Movies are working pretty good. And EJ, I like your idea, but swim has NO motivation to do anything. Everything's all fucked up, and all the plans are now wasted time. Swim screamed fuck you to the world, and the world screamed fuck you back, 6.7billion times stronger. Crying can help too, it really puts a perspective on where swim's at, but at the same time it kinda makes things seem worse. Swim's doing good controlling himself, but the addiction isn't as bad as some have it. It's gotta end. Guess swim's going shrink shopping tomorrow.....

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good advise. totaly agree with u, know what you mean

[ex-junkie]

get into music production if swiy isnt already. great little hobby there, and takes a good couple years to get good at.

[Dickon]

Possibly the best contribution to DF I ever made was this thread: Smack the monkey hard. Let off steam by abusing that monkey. 18+ - Drugs Forum. I suggest when you are feeling like saying fuck the world and generally cunting everything off that you take a time out and write a tirade of nasty abuse. I have found it a very therapeutic tool when I feel fit to burst with rage, pain or frustration.

I would prefer NA to a shrink myself, simply because people who have been through addiction problems understand far better than some well-meaning member of the laity ever will.

It might be worth reading or rereading some of the many threads on here written by people going through w.d.s and their aftermath. A withdrawal is always going to be a huge strain on the system, and you should cling on any way you can. Walking can be really helpful. Dancing or jumping around to loud music can be cathartic too, a kind of physical equivalence to "smack the monkey hard". Be the master. That's the message of my own "screaming in the night air" thread. Cat was tested to the limit, but he had an eerie praeternatural confidence even when in agony and sleep deprived. Writing about it really helped, especially at night.

Do it right, do it once. Let that thought sustain you. When the time is right learn to sit still. Do not run away. I once found cat could meditate in full-on withdrawal, and get some relief, but I think that was unusual. It might be worth a try, but sitting still is probably best attempted a few weeks down the line.

Fighting will get you so far, then you have to to not fight. There is no enemy. You are describing a very Zen predicament. You can't go back, you can't go forwards. Speak and you will get 30 blows. Don't speak and you will get 30 blows. What do you do?

....!....?....!.....x....

Dickon

[rokman nash]

For some reason I think of you as a young Jimmy Morrison. I promise your problems, I would trade w/o knowing. Listen bro as bad as it seams, its never as bad as when you wake up in the morning. Pm me and I'll help however I can.




Good Thoughts

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