SWiM's weird withdrawals, is this really normal??

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SWiM has been using just about every common opiate/opioid there is, and sometimes he has been using a them a few more days more than he planned to, which of course gave him some withdrawals. These withdrawals have not been as hellish as they can be when it comes to opies the majority of times, but still it hasn't been fun either, to say the least.

The question however, is: Everytime he has gone trough these days of withdrawals, there is a reocurring thing that ALWAYS happens. His head is fucking tortured, and always from the same type of memories. His head reminds him of the bad things he did in life, let's say cheating on someone or lying or stealing from a relative to score drugs or whatever, even if it was 15 FUCKING years ago and he has made peace with it and repayed and sincerely apologized to all involved and slowly and honestly earned their trust back.

STILL, there's NO escape from the pain from memories, memories he shouldn't mind much normally anymore. But it just won't leave him alone. Like a loud inner voice screaming at him "You don't deserve to live, just kill yourself and do everyone a favour. Do it. DO IT. You are a BAD person, because you...etc.

And it's not that it reminds him of everything at once, nooo no, it's ONE memory per withdrawal period, and it's like a broken record that WILL NOT STOP. Next withdrawal, another memory! I find this the most weird part of this, I mean come on!?

I'm not asking for any help here, I really mostly want to know if this is common, or if anyone has the same or any similar experiences to share, or if SWiM is actually as nuts as people keep telling him hehe?