Body chemistry and addiction potential for different substances

[bikeguy1030]

Let me first say, swim is not and have never been physically addicted to amphetamine or any other drug for that matter (excluding mj).

Weed always made swim paranoid but swim smoked it bc there wasnt anything else to do. swim started when at 15 and smoked on and off until last winter when swim was 17 when swim started smoking daily. The more swim smokes it, the less negative side effects swim gets. swim used to get paranoid and have extremely bad anxiety and got self concious... only part of that swim get snow is swim just get really quiet if swim is stoned outta swim's mind in a bigger group.

swim also tried my drug of choice when swim was 15; amphetamine.swim bought 20 10mg adderall xr pills from a guy swim worked with.swim started off by snorting 1.swim was incredibly euphoric, swim felt like a million bucks and the first time swim swallowed 20mg of oxycodone did not touch the euphoria.swim tried to wait a couple days in between uses to avoid a tolerance, but they were gone in about 2 weeks. swim snorted 20mg the rest of the time and it had swim feeling great, though swim did not sleep much and had anxiety on the crash and like picked at swimy face. swim had no more access to any amphetamines until last fall when swim found a buddy had a script for 20mg adderall IR. swim could only get like 3-4 a week so swim would usually snort 30mg at a time, 3 days apart or so. swim basically had 2 days a week where swim felt awesome and managed to be productive.After a couple of months of this the effects were rapidly diminishing. swim snorted 50mg and it didnt do as much as 20 used to so swim stopped. swim also dabbed a bit into ritalin, which at first made swim euphoric and warm feeling but that went away after a couple of times. If swim had an unlimeted supply, swim would have been snorting it all day every day.

Opoids... are a strange class of drugs. swim first experiences were with 10-20mg of hydrocodone orally, sometimes 30mg but rarely. swim did this about once a month or so on average. sometimes a couple times a month sometimes swim will go months without any.Hydrocodone just made swim feel high, an altered mindset with a body buzz. Very little euphoria if any. The first time swim did oxycodone swim had done hydro several times but less than 10. swim snorted 10mg of 5mg IR oxycodone hcl. swim felt euphoric and warm and great, though still not on par with first amphetamine uses. Since then swim snorted 10mg twice and took 20mg orally and did not get near the effects. 20mg orally just straight up fucked swim up to where swim was nodding but there was not much euphoria. swim has't touched either in a year or so bc of availibility. though, swim did get 100 50mg tramadol in march, which is nearly gone now. At first swim would take like 200mg at a time, one time swim took 600 mg in a day. To be honest swim was busy and in social settings and did not notice it much even in higher doses. It was not until 2 nights ago swim was taking a shower after taking 150mg and smoking a bowl that made swim really understand what opiates are about. swim felt relaxed, peaceful with the world, and content with swimself. With all highs swim feels like swim is looking for the stimulation caused by amphetamine, but now swim realizes that there is more to euphoria than the rush caused by speed. It's a unique euphoria, not even that much comparable to amphetamine, or nearly as intense or noticeable. swim has to notice it, it doesn't come out if swim doesn't look for it. Opiates are not addictive at all for swim. swim has no desire out of ordinary to do more the ext day.

swim took 1mg xanax a couple times and just got a lil messed up, not any euphoria or unusualy relaxation. swim also have taken 10-25mg of valium on several occasions. on the lower end, I do not notice much, and on the higher end of the dose swim becomes VERY easily angered and annoyed.

swim Tried dxm twice. The 2nd time swim took 480mg. swim must have some sensitivity or lack liver enzymes or something, because the 2nd time swim started laying on swim matress that was doing barrel rolls through space...well not space... through nothingness. swim would snap back into reality then be launched out to nothingness by the dxm roller coaster. What seemed like hours of the ride would be 3 minutes in reality. swim then saw God's face. It was actually very similiar to what swim portrayed, but swim can't describe it.

The best way to describe the way amphetamine made swim feel is this: swim felt like swimself, swim thought and acted the way that swim felt swim was. swim always felt the person that people see swim as is not really "swim." Of course when swim got high, "swim" was multiplied a few times. swim ended up getting a script for vyvanse and switched that to dexedrine, and has been on that for 3 months now. swim has not abused it or tried to. The first few weeks were great but swim have leveled out and am now taking 45mg/day and get no euphoria. swim just feels like swimself, but not artificial.

I tried cocaine twice. First time I did a decent sized line and felt good and noticed my hand was shaking, my whole face was numb, i did a 2nd line 1 hour later that did a little less than the first. The 2nd time was very high quality i am pretty sure, and this was outside the US not too far from columbia. the point that it was a thick paste if you let it sit out for an hour. I did a .4-.5 line when i was drunk and it jacked me up for a bit but i soon went back to baseline. I did notice that i could eat fine and go to sleep soon after both times i did it. I really want to do more when I am sober.

I also found out i have ADHD and it explains everything. From the rapidly changing hobbies (more like obsessions that stimulated me.. paintball, football, four wheelers, pyrotechnics, skating, etc) to my social problems since grade school (which explain my anxiety) to most importantly, my constant desire for stimulation. Dexedrine has turned my life around for the good, and i am never going to abuse any amphetamine again. If I want that type of high, I think i will try larger amounts of cocaine. I do not want to screw up my amphetamine wiring.

I dont get on here much, but I am posting this here, because I want to see if there are any people with similar reactions to drugs and addictive tendencies.
Oh, and please do not quote this. I will be deleting this in a few weeks.

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self-incrimination

[OtherIsomer]

Please avoid self incrimination.

Learn to swim.

Nothing will ever compare to the first experience with any substance, in swims honest opinion.

[bikeguy1030]

Sorry, I have not been on here in forever and forgot. Only problem is i can't edit my post because i'm a n00b.

[Sameria]

SWIM feels very much the same as SWIY, althoug he has not yet had the opportunity to try out pharmaceutical amphetamine, and street amphetamine just plain isn't worth buying where I am.

SWIM has his second appointment with his psychiatrist tomorrow.

Its good that SWIY has found something to help, hopefully SWIM can find sich contempment

[ex-junkie]

swim has those traits too- the seeking of stimulation. she has other ways of achieving this now that she is clean. she listens to music that averages at 170bpm, she drinks a fair amount of coffee each morning, she wanks everytime she feels the slightest throb down dare, and she plays drums.

there are other alternatives, but you dont usually realize whats stimulating when youre taking drugs. once youve stopped and your body has come good, they are much more noticable.

other things like walking briskly for 10-15 minutes, turning the shower from hot to cold before you get out, and having sex. ginseng and guarana combinations stimulate the fuck out of swim too, however she never noticed any caffeine sensitivity whilst she was taking amphetamines/methamphetamines...

thesedays its very easy to get the stimulative effect from any of the above mentioned things.