the cocaine and self control thread

[Nicaine]

I'm trying to figure out if I can use some willpower and/or other methods (even NA meetings or whatever) to only use occasionally. Last 4 months I've been going fuckin' crazy to the moon, to the severe detriment of my body, mind & finances (the latter of which have been cremated and scattered... I've applied for welfare and figured out which food bank covers my zipcode).


Trying to see if I can stick to between 2 to 4g/month, which is about what I can afford at the moment. Doesn't matter when I use it, but that's all I'm gonna use, period.


Can you use controlled, or can you not help going crazy? If you can stay under control of the cola, what head talk or other methods do you use to do it, or do you just use willpower? Or is it just no big deal & you use at a party every once in awhile? Very curious what people typically do around here.



I know the whole party line about addiction and how people are "powerless" but I don't believe a chemical can take power over someone in a literal sense. The difference between animals and humans is that humans have a higher brain cortex that can override all impulses, even hunger and thirst. We can go to war and intentionally put ourselves in the line of fire knowing we'll probably die. In other words, we can even override survival instincts. We are not powerless.



Curious for responses, please elaborate in detail if you have the time. I'm excellent at disagreeing with people as long as they're civil and don't attack me, please be totally free to voice disagreements.