Experiences - The most meaningful thing? the most beautiful thing?

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Okay first of all SWIMS pretty wasted at peasant, 4 hours ago he had 8 mg of Xanax, and then a few joints and just recently a glass of wine, make that 2 Utah. Anyway, SWIMS had a bag of 5 parts DMT 5 parts some sort of leaf.

SWIMS very familiar with DMT, but in the last six or so months has been anxious and somewhat afraid to go there, even though SWIMS truly broken through before and totally let go and embrace SWIM'self to feel so comfortable and in control. even though there is a bag of it sitting right next to swim everyday. he has been reluctant to go there, until now....

It's truly incredible and its ability to be so unique and spiritual is simply amazing??? the trip SWIM just had was unique, a lot more nostalgia(maybe cause i hadn't had it for so long?) a good friend of mine was with me(spiritually) and a million things happened in the space of a few minutes, which at the time made perfect sense and instantly developed a huge amount of motivation.... the only problem is that SWIMS now failed to remember the more encrypted part of the trip.

I'ts just truly amazing if you let go of your fear and let it take you. and if you're aware enough you can start to gain control. SWIM didn't't breakthrough just then, but has anyone been able to influence a breakthrough completely?