Experiences - How swim see's the truth

[PotSmokeŔ]

Every thing for SWIM just got real and he wrote it down to keep the thought.

this is what he wrote

"Usually when things get real i realize how pathetic my life is and i freak out, but this time i realized something about your life and well my life and i'm freaking out about it.

your lifestyle
If you have nice things you are happy. The important thing in life is having a good job so you can come home to a nice house with nice things and extra money for things you want(and be happy). Life is simple. you go to work eat watch tv go sleep paybills talk to family.


When i see you i feel half my self because you make me hide the other half. That is why i don't know who i am and i am lost in the rest of my life

You want me to be around you and be involved in my life more so you can turn me more into you taking away the other have of my self completely.




My lifestyle..."

What do you think swim should tell the person that making him feel like this?

[Fango]

Lay off the MJ for a bit, If its taking you to a bad place, then cut it out.

SWIM is not quite sure what your talking about, is SWIY talking about drug use being a part of life he cant share with others? Is SWIY referring to one person in particular, or the collective "you"?

If it is somebody trying to change who SWIY is because they don't like it then tell them to sling their hook. Change for SWIyourself, not for anybody else.

[PotSmokeŔ]

Well SWIMs mom just was talking to him right after he smoked a few bowls and after he went bake to his room.. that when it happened. Just a un expected talk with my mom.

And this is not my mom i'm talking about.

[shwinehund]

Sounds like you're 2 indentical twins pretending to be the same person (just kidding).

But seriously, cannabis makes you detached, so that you can view different aspects of yourself, and compare them.

When you get into this state, you realize that these "acts" that you put on or the "characters" that you play, are infact quite malleable, and you will notice that people will try and change these characters, to suit their needs. Often they are insecure in the act they are playing, so they need to convince other people, to convince themselves ("If hes doing it, its good that I'm doing it, even though I convinced him to do it") This includes the LIE of "nice things make you happy"

You must become comfortable with ALL aspects of yourself (easier said than done ,I know) but the choices are; complete detachment (no satisfaction), complete attachment (risk of betrayal) or detached attachment (where you are aware of how you feel/are, but don't let it be an obstacle)

Anyways, they will never destroy half of you. They can shape it, by applying pressure and you resisting with all the fear and conviction of complete destruction. You must resist in the right ways, be detached enough to see where you need help, and you must attached and accepting in other ways. Build yourself by accepting what works, and resisting what doesn't.

As for what to say, don't say anything. Approach the situation as it is. If they ask questions, tell them the truth. Trust your own morals and convictions. Do what is RIGHT, not what is expected.

Don't plan on how you're going to fight the wave, just get ready to surf..

Blah! I could be WAy WAY off here....hope I make sense

[Ganja2k8]

Sounds like swiys getting the "spacey detatched" feeling from cannabis "Is life pointless? who am I? What am I? Why are we here?" kind of feeling. Scary at first but can be eye opening. Swim had these feelings so many times swim would get paranoid everytime he smoked.

Just lay off for a while, you'll feel better not to mention swiy's tollerance to cannabis will most likely decrease (Better high next time swiy smokes?) Good luck.