I am reporting here the experience of a male friend who did not want to post this personally but has sent me a note with this... it's going to be in first person...Let's call him Ben.
"The first time I tried MDMA was many many years ago, at the end of the nineties. As usual the first time was awsome then the other times were very good then after extended repetition the experiences started being less euphoric, like there was less good vibe associated with them. Gradually I started thininking that the good times had ended, like we say the magic is lost, so I started doing it less and less. As a result I started going clubbing less and less either. A few days ago I was in Amsterdam for Queensday and I went to a John Digweed gig and I totally changed my view of the matter.
I was with 2 girls (both really good looking Mexican girls). We took some MDMA pills and later some MDA powder (I know it's a good combo). We started dancing slowly waiting for John to start his set and when the MDMA hit we had to go in front of the dj booth to dance. From that moment on we stayed there until the very end 3 hours later.
I have to start saying that I was there on holiday for a few days to see an old friend of mine, one of these 2 girls, who is really just friends to me, no sex involved. In my own country I was going out with a girl for a few years and things looked normal, like we would have good times, bad times maybe too many arguments and such, but still looked normal to me. In these days in Amsterdam and espacially during that night, which gave all this a kickstart, I felt happyness come back into my live after being long forgotten. I felt great with these girls and they felt great too. We were so excited we had one of the best times clubbing in a long while. That was the same for all of us. We felt so much energy, so much good vibes inside us that we could not escape showing it. We were dancing and smiling and hugging like the good old times, like the first times I tried MDMA.
I don't know exaclty what triggered all this, but since my arrival in Amsterdam I felt somewhat diffenrent, like my life was about to change for the better. Probably the fact that I fancied the other girl and that she fancied me contributed making this turn out to be so special and life changing, perhaps the fact that my mexican friend really sends out good vibes to people she cares about also helped, but I really think that the magic we are all looking for really lies inside each of us and we are reasponsible for it. It's still there. If were able to feel it once or a few times, We probably only forgot about it or do not even look in the rigth place anymore. We get used to it and only look for the effects of the drug instead of looking for what's inside us, the good feelings and the good vibes that we have within and that made MDMA such a special material. At a certain point John played a remix of Radiohead's "Everything in its right place" and my friend turned to me and her other fiend and said smiling: -Everything really is in its rigth place-. I cannot explain how good I felt in that moment. The three of us were one. We loved the music, we loved each other so much that night. We both agreed that it was awesome. I am speaking about feelings not sex. There was no sex, there was actually no sex in my mind in that club at all.
I eneded up staying in Amsterdam a few days more than expected. A special bond was set between me and one of the 2 girls while the bond with my old friend got even stronger after so much time we didn't have such good times together.
When I came back I gave some change to my life and left my girlfriend since I saw what happiness really is about again, like I used to know before. It's there I know, inside me."
dude that is amazing, its probably becuase you were with good friends, just having the time of your life.
im slowly loosing my magic, but its probably becuase ive been getting dodgier pills more and more.
I have an md cap and a high quality pill and 50 bag of speed, ill see how it goes
swim appreciates your story and without wanting to snatch the attention swim will just say that taking mdma for the first time made swim much more open and tolerant ever since.
enjoy your new found happyness.
08-05-2009, 17:50
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