Experiences - SERIOUS paranoia!!!

[beena]

SWIM was just having a conversation with her boyfriend remembering a time (a couple of years ago now), when she suffered a serious bout of cocaine-induced paranoia. SWIM thinks it came close to cocaine-psychosis, but she'll let you be the judge. It's only really now, two years on, that SWIM can talk about it, laugh about it, and really know that it was just paranoia. SWIM decided to start this thread in case anyone else out there is experiencing paranoia like this - it's not pleasant to go through (or to put someone else through for that matter).
It all began about two years ago when SWIM had been smoking crack-cocaine for about six years. SWIM's boyfriend had been to a rehab but unsucessfully came home and took up the pipe again. But something changed for SWIM, something clicked in her brain and she thought .....

1) That her boyfriend was swapping the drugs, the crack, for 'fake crack'. (So he was enjoying smoking crack whilst she was smoking wax or something that just happened to look, taste and smell a bit like crack! Also that he was very good at slight of hand tricks and could swap the crack in front of her very eyes as she watched - that's pretty weird, right?!)
2) That her boyfriend was giving SWIM just enough crack to keep her addicted but other than that he was swapping the drugs.
3) That everyone they knew was in on it and that SWIM's boyfriend's best friend would stand outside their flat when they were smoking and signal to her boyfriend. (SWIM's boyfriend had a habit of looking out the window, through the blinds a lot when they were smoking and she convinced herself that he was signalling to someone that he was in cahoots with)
4) That her boyfriend was drugging her with something else like rohypnol so that she wouldn't remember half of what had happened the next day.
5) That her boyfriend was putting drugs in the tobacco or the cigarettes.
6) That if she shared a cigarette with her boyfriend he would know exactly where the drugs were and she wouldn't (so if he asked her for a drag on the cigarette it would be cos he knew he would be about to hit the drugs).

OMG! It sounds pretty crazy, huh? But it was so real at the time and not funny in the least. SWIM is still struggling to give up the crack but she started using heroin and that seemed to bring back her sanity (s'ppose that's one good thing about the brown then!). But seriously though, SWIM hopes no-one else is going through anything like this. If anyone else has been through it though please share ......