Beyond words: Baby Woodrose & Yage

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Im still trying to grasp some of what I went through went through
last night. If this is a bit disjointed its because the whole world
came aprt on me last night.



5pm: Finally my package arrived from the netherlands, 25 HWBR seeds, 1oz MHRB, 1oz Diploterys cabrena, 1oz syrian rue.

6pm: Peeled wooly caot off 10hwbr, brewed 5grams rue in pot. 9grams mhrb with 8grms diplo in another.

8:30pm I place on yage in fridge.

9pm Ingest 10hwbr

9:30 Drink 1/2 of rue mix.

10pm first alert colors sound brighter lethargic energy

10:30 drink 2/3 mhrb mix, nasty but bearable.

11 trippin hard, start to hear "whispers" seein faces on ceiling, skin tingly, thought wow that peaked fast

11:30 not peaked ,im fucked, keeps getting harder, wife trys to talk to
me I can barely follow words, this other voice keeps trying to get in

sometime after midnight

It didnt matter if my eyes were open or shut i couldnt tell the
difference. I felt/heard this thing in my mind,buzz buzz nnnnnnnnnnnn,
it was trying to communicate with me and could only do so by using
images in my head that it pulled from me. I try to go to that place I
go when i need to clear head trippin. Chases me wont let go cant hide.
Fingers in me. I let go. It throws me out into some other space, asks
if I want to see god, lifts the edge of a veil, no no o no too
much. COme up for air

I can see the clock2:30 now still tripping hard this voice is laughing
at me. Drank the rest ( I still dont know why I
drank the rest only that it felt wrong to waste the power)

Puked like I never puked before, cant stand time direction lost cold so
cold. Look in mirror ,is it mirror me is me mirror, the word I
represents so much more than itself . puked fell, melted. Please let me
go i dont want to see more, its too much

Make it from bathroom to couch somehow. lay with eyes closed for rest
of night till fell asleep.So many thoughts I breathe in rythym to the
earth. Woke up today and wrote train of thought about my trip. Oddly
instead of feeling like total garbage I feel more clean&alert than
usual. No hangover execpt for some auras aroung edge of vision which
are not uncomfortable.

My wife went to bed just before things got real hairy for me so I dont
know how I looked to a sober bystander. Overall ++++, I have never
before felt such raw reality fuck power from any drug. </span>This is not a toy for mental amusement. I dont think Im going back for a long time.