Side effects - Derealization/Depersonalization induced by mdma

[ShaolinBomber]

Well im just starting this thread to inform people about the potential risk of causing yourself derealization or depersonalization from rolling. my pet llama had this happen (might still be happening but he's coming out of it) over the past 10 days or so after rolling on a saturday night. llama ingested 300-350mg of pure mdma and was fucked for a good 4 hours. The roll was so intense that on the come up loony llama could barely move. The rush was unexplainable. he felt like he could smash through a brick wall.

Anyways, the day after did not feel so out of the ordinary. You know, the usual spacy feeling and tiredness. But the following days became very wierd and, to be honest, says llama, quite scary. He had this feeling that nothing was like it was before he rolled. Like he was in a dream waiting to wake up but couldn't. he could distinguish what reality was but it was like being trapped in a bottle and just watching yourself go through the motions of life and not able to experience it. Thats what the definition of derealization is. If anyone else has had to deal with this then you know what this llama's talking about.

The point im trying to make here is that if you start to experience this, just calm down. In my llama's experience, worrying about it will make it 10x worse and this feeling of despair will wash over you. In my llama's opinion this is worse than any kind of physical pain that can be brought on by drugs. Its like a mental anguish that you cant escape from. But give it time. Time is all it takes to sort things out, and with time you will return to normal. llama personally had episodes that were stronger feeling than others. Sometimes you will feel just fine, other times you will start to feel like reality is slipping from your grasp. If this happens to you like it has for llama then just relax and go with it. Anxiety will only make it worse.

3 tips llama can offer are:
1. DO NOT dwell on your current state. This will only worsen it.
2. Dont allow this to interfere with your normal, everyday activities. Keep exercise and a healthy diet intact.
3. Keep an optomistic outlook. You will get better.

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