Anxiety sucks....

[Str8]

Ever since x has stopped the opes 40 some odd days ago, x has been experiencing anxiety. That is pretty much the last lingering symptom, and also one of the reasons x started taking opes in the first place. His body is just so cranked up... Like in the morning when x wakes up and cuts carrots for his carrot juice, he gets that scared feeling like his nerves are shot because he thinks he's going to cut a finger off. These are irrational thoughts and x hates them, and x hates being anxious all the time. The social anxiety is the worst... x used to be a social butterfly and now he is a nervous wreck.

Obviously there are more things in x's life that contribute to the anxiety besides the lack of opes and those are the very things which are coming back to haunt x since now he is thinking very clearly. I think for everyone this is the hardest part...way harder than quitting.

So x also stopped the ambien 7 days ago, after 2 months of taking it everynight... it sucked for the first night or two but now x is actually sleeping fine ( x takes valerian & true calm (herbal works on the gabas) to take the edge off and it really helps ) He sleeps about 6 hours a night during the week.

X actually felt like he was benzo withdrawing for a few days there after discontinuing the ambien...

So x is starting to wonder if he should go see someone and try to get on some type of benzo because he feels like the anxiety is to the point of being crippling.. especially socially. But... x has done benzos in the past and had the pleasure of tapering off them and quitting them already so he knows how dangerous they are. It really is a catch 22... get on them and get on with your life, but in the meantime x does not ever want to have to taper off of them. So if a dr or shrink ever prescribes them to x, he would need to confirm that the dr has no intention of ever taking x off of them.

Or should he just wait, keep exercising and eating well and tough out the anxiety.. hope the nerves just heal themselves ??