to those who've recovered...

[reighna1]

I’m writing because I really don’t know where else to turn and I’m hoping to get some advice from someone who knows more than I do about this situation.


Several years ago, my fiancé was addicted to heroin. His addiction was kickstarted by a couple years of painkiller abuse – but the actual heroin abuse lasted 4 years.. the first 3 were recreational use, the last year the heroin heavily grabbed ahold him. He was put in treatment, and after a few attempts, Successfully kicked Heroin. He was on methadone for 2 years.

Following the methadone, he’s been on Suboxone and Paxil. This has been for the last year. He relapsed on heroin one time, 9 months ago, and never touched it again. But he still finds a way to take Oxycotin, Valium and Klonipin recreationally. I believe he will go a few days off of his Suboxone to do this.

He’s 32 years old and he just can’t get it together. He has caused me and his entire family disgusting amounts of pain. I am just desperate. I feel he was strong enough to overcome heroin – why would he still mess with opiate pain killers? He finds ways to justify his actions.. despite the obvious pain it causes us and himself. What should I do? I don’t want to enable him, but I don’t want to come across as so judgmental that he feels the need to hide and go behind my back.

I’d really appreciate any advice you could offer on this.