Other - This is absolutely down right weird!

[asa_phelps]

SWIM is 21 years old, in UK & has a very addictive personality. SWIM has tried all drugs with the exception of crack, heroin, ketamine & meth. SWIM smokes 30 cigarettes a day, and can't stop drinking when starts until he can't stand. SWIM is a really addictive person.

Anyway, SWIM absolutely loves drugs, loves the lifestyle & finds himself often thinking and dreaming of trying & getting addicted to hard drugs. SWIM loves the feeling of being dependent & addicted to things.

SWIMs problem is that he doesnt know anybody who sells crack, heroin or meth. SWIM wants to be a junkie and SWIM isn't even joking! SWIMs fully aware that these drugs steal your life, steal your money & ruin you, however SWIM would do absolutely anything to get into the circle of hard drugs.

SWIM knows it's really unusual & that normal people surely don't think like this? What's wrong with me? And do you have any advice for what I can do to become hooked on crack or heroin? I posted this in the crack cocaine section because it would be my preference.

Sorry if I've not worded this very well but you get the idea, I love addiction & I want to be an addict. Crazy! Thanks

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This is a harm reduction website. Noone is going to give you tips on how to create a harmful situation for you.

[Joe-(5-HTP)]

As long as swiy is aware it will destroy your health and swiy needs a lot of money to cover the habit otherwise withdrawals will turn the experience into something no one could enjoy. I don't know much about addiction but read around this site and i'm sure you will find plenty of horror stories about it.

apologies, but swim doesn't think you are weird, just ignorant.

[mahoney]

Maybe you should think about therapy before you decide to get fucked up...find out why you have such a low value of yourself before you do something that will cause all sorts of problems. There are most likely psychological causes to your problems and they could probably be solved with effort and introspection. Really think before you say I want to get addicted to crack and heroin because there will be times when you'll wish you were dead instead of that. That is a disturbing attitude...learn to help yourself get better instead of giving up.

[yaba]

Madness !!!!!!

After you lost your job, family, friends, partner, credit, house and is on methadone and gets counseling, is rebuilding swiy life after 10 years of drug misuse. Then come back and say, that was fun ! I want to do it again !!!

And can't get heroine and or crack ?? How hard can it be ?
Swim's first drug was heroine when he was 13..

[Ilsa]

does swiy have anything he values? count that gone.

is swiy in good health? those days are numbered

does swiy have money? it will run out eventually


or swiy will wake up and realize one day all that he has lost, in terms of friends and family, work, health, and so on.

that said, since swiy seems set on this idea that addiction is fun and wants to try it out, maybe swiy should find out where the local needle exchange is (if there is one) and make some effort to reduce the amount of harm swiy will inevitably do to swiy's body. stock up on oral health products too, meth with ruin the teeth, permanently altering the jaw-line and imparts a general sagging of the face. stock up on water with electrolytes and any drinkabel nutrition, since swiy prob won't feel much like eating if swiy ever finds the drugs they seek (heroin can go either way, but one def loses weight during withdrawals).

i am not in an way encouraging you to become addicted to anything. that is your choise and yours alone. the above paragraph lists a few measures one can take if one knows they will be going on a bender. anything one can do to reduce the damage done to the body by th drugs themselves or the administration of them.

i posted this because kitten went through a period where she was very depressed and ended up living with friends who had money and coke and heroin, both taken iv, all day, every day. she just said 'fuck it all' for awhile.. she woke up and got out when she realized that her mom was sick again and that she just couldn't take the insanity of being a junkie anymore.

[frenchywife]

"SWIM wants to be a junkie and SWIM isn't even joking! SWIMs fully aware that these drugs steal your life, steal your money & ruin you, however SWIM would do absolutely anything to get into the circle of hard drugs."

SWIY's done enough drugs already and enough brain cells have been lost - FOREVER!

[Tony Williams]

It might seem cool to be wired on drugs 24/7 and everyone thinks your a loon who knows you ... I think I might know where you are coming from.

but .... let's look at it 10/20 years down the line from today, you could end up with a heavy dependency, no job, no life, your friends have all moved on. You spend 98% of your money on drugs. You feel though everyone looks down on you, your health starts to go south too. The high has gone and your using more drugs + more money to feel more normal.

You look back to this day and think ... why!!

SWIM has a very addictive personality too and it tends to shift from one thing to another, it's not a bad thing just allows SWIM to learn and try alot. He becomes obcessed with stupid things, he was the one with the most Pokemon cards, he's the one who goes OTT with buying food, drink and drugs (maybe just a little).

But he would always draw a line with hard drug use before he grew a dependency to them, he would hate to see his health (which he takes alittle serious) go down the drain and his bank empty because of a stupid addiction.

Use drugs to go from up to up, never from down to up.

Can't SWIY just pretend to be a caffiene addict like everyone else? It'd be a shame if you read what we all said and went ahead anyway and ****ed your life up because of drugs. It's something that needs to be moderated.

[Benga]

find something else.
no one here will help you try to get addicted or find "hard drugs". we focus on harm reduction and responsible substance use.

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