Journal - Swim trying to Sleep

[oxynomo]

Swim is now 7days 10 1/2 hours into his worst fuckn week ever.Swim got sleep Jan. 2.Since that date total of 2-3 hours till now.Starting to feel like swim is out of it.Swim was on the oxy shit for over7 years110 mgs aday and did'nt miss many.Itwas not hard to with ins. co. with script bennies.$5.00 a script no matter what is was.Swim knows that contributed to swims problem.And even swim contributed to it. When is it going to end,the no sleep days those fuckn chills(though they have gotten less chilly) the nightly bodily convulsions . Fuck calling it RLS its more than that.Tonight swim is going to make certain swim sleep It's a cocktail I just in my outside fridge 24 Becks Dark, Martini and Rossi asti. plus acouple benzos. If Swim doesnt do this soon ,swim might be checking into one of those nice PADDED FACILITY real soon. Anyway thanks for listening. good luck and peace to all

[AvidFan]

Hang in there - from the sounds of it SWIY has decided to quit and is going through hell? If you have to go through hell, just keep going.

It will pass, it will get better - maybe it won't all be perfect after a few days, it will take time to get back to normal, but it will get better. Hold on to that thought.

Best of luck

[oxynomo]

Yes swim has decided to get off that crap.Today at noon swim will be starting day 9 clean. The first 3-4 were killer.Patient x story kept swim going.Don't know how many times swim read it.Swim did manage some real sleep and doesn't feel all that bad. Again Thanks

[wonky]

SWIM is tapering off of opiates and getting 3-4 hrs sleep a night. SWIM cuts again today, nights 2 and 3 are the worst sleep, cut every 4 days. It does suck not to sleep. SWIM came off of benzos a few years ago, took a year to heal completely, slept 2-3 hours a night for the first six months. Bad, bad withdrawals for the first 3 to 4 months then they slowly subsided as time went on. Only time has healed SWIM. Nothing else. SWIM got the motivation to start tapering this time by finding this forum and reading the stories. This is now keeping her going, just like SWIY. If SWIY cold-turkeyed, the worst is over. SWIY will notice a rapid improvement from here. SWIM is right there with SWIY. Good luck.

[rokman nash]

Oxy,It took 10 days for my friend to turn the corner. It will get better,I promise.Dave was not capable of starting his thread till day 11.I believe you are at the point of it not being physical but mental. Stay strong, if you want a horror story read my thread .

PM if I can help,good thoughts

[oxynomo]

Thanks Roc,sounds all to familiar.Onlt difference swim has a fucked up lower back and equally screwed neck.Multiple surgeries ,fixed what they could,pain wasn't really that bad .But swim liked that oxy shit and just kept telling docs it was hurting.End result didn' have to looking for the shit.New script monthly plus script was paid by ins. Gotta go ,Did manage work last night,wasn't easy still going through this. Reading and talking bout it helps so thanks,ox

[drug-bot]

swim knows it sucks, had to kick heroin in jail and coudlnt sleep for 1 and a half weeks and when he could it was just like for 4-5hrs. it gets better though, swims been down that path plenty of times; its like even after most withdrawl symptoms start to subside sleeping is always the fucking last one. if you can tough it out for a few more days, sleeping will be an option again, good luck.