Overdose - Near death?

[PapaBurgundy]

For the past 4 weeks SWIM has been on MDMA, Ketamine, Marijuana, Cocaine and Alcohol. Not all 5 at once every day, but there have only been about 4 sober days out of the past month. SWIM has also had an extreme lack of sleep and been working Saturday and Sunday with school during the week.

On Friday Swim had a nice mix of Ketamine and MDMA, which gave SWIM an amazing trippy buzz, the room was melting, faces were changing etc. All in all, it was good.

Last night SWIM did just over half a gram of ketamine, had a bit to drink, then popped an 'E' pill. One of SWIMs friends took 2 of these pills and threw up all night. SWIM felt a bit ill, but there was no vomitting.

Wanting the same MDMA/KET buzz as the night before, SWIM decided to snort a few more lines of Ketamine. Within around 20 minutes SWIM was feeling the effects. This time when SWIM tried to walk it felt as though the world was moving on a pivot, making it hard to stand. Evrytthing was VERY distorted; it took SWIM a while to recognize where SWIM was and also realise that SWIM's house was SWIM's own. SWIM was not in reality and nothing seemed normal. Realising that the pill was probably full of bad substances, SWIM decided not to take anymore drugs of any kinda for the rest of the night.

Within another 20 or 30 minutes SWIM's friend noticed a discharge or substance dripping from SWIM's nose, SWIM blew out SWIMs nose gently and loads of this stuff started falling out. Becoming more worried SWIM stopped this as it made SWIM feel worse. within another 20 minutes SWIM could taste a strong, strange acid taste in SWIMs mouth which made SWIM raelise that something was wrong. SWIM could also not control his body completely; SWIMs friend told SWIM what to do and SWIM did it uncontrollably, as if being controlled by the other person.

Back at home, SWIM looked in the mirror to see that SWIM looked terrified and couldn't move much. Everything inside SWIM's hosue seemed a lot larger and very 'cartoony'. THis, SWIM didn't mind, but the feelings inside were becoming worse. Laying down SWIM felt as though chemicals were being released into SWIMs bloodstream; SWIM could feel this happening and some parts of SWIMS body had an icey-numb sensation, somehting SWIM had never felt before. Every breath SWIM took felt like the last as it completely used all of SWIM's energy and made parts of SWIM feel as though they were shutting down. SWIM could still move, but it hurt and didn't feel right. SWIM didn't feel scared or worried that SWIM would die, SWIM felt for sure that this was the end and could feel something working inside and when SWIM thought about death the feelings became a lot worse and made SWIM's mind stop working correctly. When SWIM thought about hearing the voice of God, SWIM felt sa though his mind was rising out of his body, this only stopped when SWIM began to stop thinking about it.

SWIM woke within 3 hours and felt very odd, almost in shock but sort of on a downer at the same time. But still, nothing really felt normal.

SWIM then went to work and had several pains in SWIM's heart, which only lasted a few seconds but kept coming back. SWIM also became very low at points and felt SWIMs head falling towards the floor.

SWIM believes that he only stayed alive by using mind over matter, as the thought abouts being alive made the bad feelings inside go away.

Is it possible that SWIM's brain released DMT or a simliar substance, as if to keep SWIM alive? And was the acid taste and substance from SWIM's nose a discharge of some sort from SWIM's brain?

Any help would be appreciated. SWIM will not be taking any more drugs for a while.