Saying goodbye to Meth...?

[gepta001]

Hi peoples,



sigh, I'm tired of this shit, for reals. I'm to f**ked up in the head, and I'm trying to drown out all the pain with drugs, and I basically used Meth to lose some weight to feel better about myself, but also to not think about other stuff. I'm going back to maryjane. I hate thinking so god damn much, it just hurts. And as crappy as I feel, I just like myself to much to keep on killing myself with unatural chemicals.



I just too much of a nice guy, I wish I was some huge asshole. I treat people too decently, I listen to them when they talk, I understand so much, when so little is said, Every girl I go out with thinks of me as a friend, and I'm tired of it. Just because I fricken listen, and respect a girl, I'm the guy they call at 4am crying when their boyfriends beat them, or dump them, or get them pregnant. Too many times have I heard "Why can't I find someone like you" from a girl, but when I tell a girl how I feel, even from the beginning, when I let them know that I'm interested in them for relationship purposes. I still get put in the fricking friend category. it's bullshit people. It hurts too much to be alone.



So anyway, I can't let this drug deteriote my mind anymore. I must continue down the road less travelled by, and sigh, and somewhere ages and ages hence, I will still be alone. But I want my god given sanity. And this drug is the path more commenly taken, and it destroys your brains, bodies, and souls.



take care of yourselves people,

there are less harmful drugs out there, there's meds you can get prescriptions for anything, any of you truely need to quit, and return to normal, healthy, real, real real, real, open your eyes, real life. responsibilities, Stop the lies to yourselves, and to your family, and to anyone that cares for you, or that you truely care for. Stop using others, we're all human beings. We all experience pain, and sorrow, and suffer. turn to your family, or your friends, or your shrink, I really need a shrink, can anyone p/m some advice. anyone from ventura county? or Santa Barbara County? turn to your god, wether it be Budha, Jesus, allah, the alien spacecraft that will come rescue you, the god within yourself, whatever you believe. Do what you need to do for yourself, and for others. stop using meth, and people. It's just wasting your time, body, mind, etc.



may the force be with all of you

-the gepped