Overdose - Heh. Move this to trip reports. Sorry in advance, mods

[KorSare]

stumble to keyboard. remember. remember trying to figure out even how to post in the forum here. wow. wtf is going on. k forget about remembering. there's no way you're gonna forget this LOL ok. start again. nevermind. fuck it. why even bother. ROFL stare at the word "stumble" for what seems to be endless,fricken sentences are mingling together forever. this is fricken ridiculous. i can't even read properly to edit my own post. am i even posting anymore? is this a dream? what is GOING ON? long story short, Ryan, you are the man. -- i keep thinking. i'm trying to end this post now. I have some weird uncontrollable feeling to share every feeling and thought and emotion and utter being of my soul to everyone everywhere at once. Sorry guys, ending the trip report here, I'll give you an update in the morning.......there's a bit of irony behind this one. Wow, I keep editing my own post. I'm watching a random file "Stargate.avi" on my harddrive just to keep track of time. now I'm thinking, what am i doing? and now I'm thinking about how much I love my girlfriend. and now I'm not thinking about thinking. Whoever designed thinking was an idiot. Sorry. If I weren't so high off acid I'd understand if I saw a person walk down the street wearing a t-shirt with the above quote "whoever designed thinking was an idiot" that'd I'd probably understand where the god damn quote came from in the god damn first place. THAT'S IT. I'M GOING FOR A CIGARETTE. I'LL EDIT THIS FRICKEN THING IN THE FRICKEN MORNING. WHICH, I HOPE TO GOD NEVER COMES. NOT BECAUSE I WISH DEATH BUT BECAUSE WTF JUST GO. all the writing is turning into russian anyway. what a ramble. sorry. talk about ego smashing. wtf does ego even mean. alright now I'm stuck in a time loop of posting and reading my own post between editing my own post and I recall all the stories and reports of people being freaked the shit out because they thought they were stuck in a time loop and worried they were probably going to die and suffer severe heart attacks and all their loved ones would find them on christmas morning (even though it's still 5 days till christmas, or four days, or whatever) That's not even important, why am i letting it bother me? what am I doing again? what time is it? holy fuck, still haven't gone for that cigarette. ANOTHER EDIT -- i may as well just smoke here. well that was a good idea, why didn't you think of that four hours ago? wait, who are you talking to? i'm talking to myself. where are my god damn cigarettes. another edit. I keep thinking about cigarettes but still haven't gone for one. this whole talk about cigarettes is kind of making me feel like an addict. which is kind of depressing. but why? why be ashamed to be a smoker? fuck your 9-meter to a doorway laws, how about you re-design your city to accomodate the smokers, BITCH?! Like hell if I'm gonna freeze my ass outside to enjoy a nice dart, thank you very much!! in the time it took me to write this, I could've smoked half a pack! which reminds me, why aren't I smoking yet? The cigarettes are right in the other room man. Just get up. GET UP. STOP TYPING AND GET UP alright now that you've stop typing, stop reading and get up endless circle. am i dying? another edit. How many times can you edit something anyway. sorry, gotta go, floating monkey on a mcdonalds cup, crap leaking all over my logitech Damn. should've asked for one of those for christmas, to replace this one. When is christmas, anyway? Thank god I've done my shoppinp edit, I spelled shopping wrong. why am I even caring about grammar and spelling right now? I should be more concerned about why I haven't left the room to find my cigarette pack of which I had already discovered was in the next room. edit, the point i'm trying to get across is, why am I not smoking right now? And why

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oops. i think I fucked up. I'm seeing "submit reply" at least 2 or 3 times more than I should be regularily seeing. Which one do I click on to actually submit it? Dude, your hand isn't even touching the mouse. EXCUSE ME, DOES SOMEONE EXIST INSIDE MY OWN REALITY BESISES ME RIGHT NOW? and if so, do you have a cigarette? wow what the fuck is an automerged doublepost? and why am I becoming so vulgar? this is NOT PG-13. but who cares about being pg-13 anyway, kids sneak into movies all the time these days. ratings don't have their meaning like they used to. edit. why do I keep saying edit. copy that, tango four bravo delta charlie over roger that charlie, ten four. EDIT I'M GOING TO BE SICK EDIT -- ten four charlie, all hands on deck alright I'm not sick yet. I could use a cigarette. but a cigarette would probably make me sick. i can't believe i was standing up for smokers a few minutes ago, when the mere thought of a cigarette now wants to make me wrench my guts out deep breaths. you drank enough whiskey sours last night. let's not make a mess of the floor tonight

[radiometer]

Hopefully SWIY is not too upset tomorrow that they wasted an hour of their trip writing that nonsense.

This was actually a quite interesting read. My favorite part is where SWIY wrote "ending the trip report here" before they even got properly started.

[KorSare]

Off topic: Is a whiskey sour considered a men's or a women's drink? or is it unisex? EDIT. stargate is almost over. actually no it's not. it's an hour and a half way though. MAN THIS IS A LONG MOVIE and I think to myself sarcastically : who actually enjoys movies like these? and myself says back to me: (obviously offended but at the same time

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what's the word. wtf is the word i'm looking for Wow. what the fuck. Someone with a timex is actually counting minutes and seconds who owns a timex these days anyway, those were out of style when Prince was still named the Artist who was Formerly Known As Prince, who is now a SYMBOL, was still in fashion Why am I even talking about prince? I hate prince? actually how can I say that when I haven't listened to one of his songs from beginning to end

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How about looking at some family pictures, or art books or something? Pondering problems SWIY might be having? Perhaps even a more meaningful movie, or some music?

Once things start to calm down a bit is a great moment to get some benefit out of a trip. Just a thought...

[KorSare]

oooh OOOOH PARANOIA I need a smoke to settle my nerves

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whoops, posting backwards now, thinking about the good advice that was just given and wondering why I can't go backwards in time (or is it forwards?) to help myself actually take the good advice in the first place Is the reason I'm so paranoid is because I think my forum reputation is going down faster than the stock markets and the numbers in my RRSP's?! And why am I so paranoid about being paranoid? SHIT. ANOTHER CATCH 22. for some reason I feel the tobacco companies are to blame for this. but they're not. because I love the taste of cigarettes, and nothing that heavenly can be.... damnit, what's the word again Who's taking care of my posts here? God bless damn my lips are dry. it's this damn cold weather, thank god I'm not smoking outside when I could be enjoying my cigarette right now. RIGHT NOW

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Leo Zeff, the father of MDMA psychotherapy, told a great story about LSD and smoking.

He was coming down from tripping with a friend, and he said to his friend, "I'm allergic to cigarette smoke," as the same time as he was smoking a cigarette. His friend looked back and forth from his face to the cigarette a couple times, and said "well, don't you think you should quit smoking, then?"

To which, after some thought, Leo replied "the proper question is not should I quit smoking but have I quit already?" He then finished that cigarette and never smoked another in his lifetime.

happy trails!

[KorSare]

Who are you, "radiometer" you seem to be everywhere at yet nowhere all at once. Are you a god? Do I believe in god? What is a god anyway? EDIT. here i am again, saying EDIT. if god had MERCY, he'd let me out of this infinite posting time loop to have a cigarette another edit. Why am I having an intense psychedelic and spiritual conversation about cigarettes, i mean cmon man, that's kind of depressing

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I'm just a fellow forum member who decided to help you out since you seemed a bit lost.

I truly suggest a break from the internet! Go poke your nose into real life a little bit. You will understand everything perfectly tomorrow.

[KorSare]

I keep checking my phone to see if the girlfriend has left me a text message. It's on silent right now. God I miss her. EDIT. true that, homie. I'm clearing off the bed now Another edit: spent the last 5 minutes retching up my black lung alpha bravo charlie delta echo foxtrot gulf hotel india juliet kilo lima mike november December Christmas. Thank god I've done my shopping I should buy myself a carton of smokes to thank myself about having well planned this holiday out. What am I talking about? I don't smoke anymore.

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Timeloop. I keep checking the 'underlines' in your font for hidden hyperlinks, as if the whole mindblowing aspect of awe will have some definite wikipedian-type architect to them

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I could really use a damn coca cola. a cold coca cola. ironically symbolic to Christmas Thank god I've done my shopping

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what am I thinking about again? Wow, the screen changes every time I speak.

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End. Exhausted. Goodbye. "SWIM." p.s. This is Stargate's Fault. Those Goa-uld Bastards.

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Here's a hyper link:

http://www.maps.org/books/scr/noframes.html

You can read the book I quoted (from memory, not verbatim) from there. If you don't read it, bookmark it, it's great stuff.

[KorSare]

Now I understand. how the forums work. I'll leave it at that. Too much thinking leads

[beentheredonethatagain]

you have been a member here since 2005, but I dont think I have ever seen you here before, do you not come here regularly?