i was putting this in a reply to a thread back from 2005 but after writing it out i realised that the hallucinations my marmoset was having were way to intense to write down on an old thread that would get viewed.
as a note i only hallucinate when coming down, and are intensified if i smoke myself blind with marijuana. my marmoset hallucinates on all different pills other times more so than others, but his friends all report hallucinating but i don't think as intense as my marmoset . anyways here's his story -
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"i've searched a bit on the internet and never came across something so similar to my experience. people say it is hard to explain what you hallucinate and their nature but c-banks has explained it so well. it's basically the same as i have experienced. i went looking into hallucinating on pills as i hallucinate almost too much. they mainly revolve around people. i only really see them when it's dark, not pitch black but very dark. the almost darkness makes everything ambiguous, if that makes sense. things look like things their not.
my hallucinations have been extremely vivid and extremely entertaining but at one point i was fearing for my life. i like c-banks say have heard very clear conversations. they occur parallel to your conscious thought and you can't stop them. it's like several videos playing full blast in your mind and you can't stop them. just irritating. i have been able at some points imagine anything i wanted. looking at a tree i saw a morphing person which i eventually got to stay as a constant image of a lady with a white shirt and small black backpack hugging a tree. i've also seen one friends reach out and give another friends a light in what i would describe as extremely intense. right in front of my eyes, green-blue based negative colour with lots of sparkles and phosphenes (if anyone knows what these are?). one friend i remember vividly was wearing a patterned hoodie.
the point i feared my life was when on holidays with friends i attempted to sleep on the beach by myself after smoking weed and coming down of pills. at first the hallucinations where just weird. the real world would almost fog over and i would feel as if i was somewhere else. this time i thought i was sitting at the main street of the town where there was a round about and i could see cars and hear them. i could only notice this wasn't real when i tried to consciously think clearly then all would disappear but it was very diffiuclt to focus on the real world. then i could hear people everywhere. i know that for sure that night at some point people were walking on the beach but seeing these people and hearing their voices intensified my hallucinations and caused me to have an almost full blown psychosis. i was seeing almost hundreds of people. constantly walking around and morphing. i stared at a point which always looked like a different person walking towards me and realised it was just a rock and with enough focus could tell no one was there but i couldn't stop seeing these people. eventually i was convinced people had slowly crept up on me hiding amongst the rocks on the beach, waiting to bash me. at one point i saw a man with a shaved head only 5 metres in front of me smiling at me, i blinked and he went away then when i looked back the side of my hoodie became a person and i freaked out as i thought someone was standing right next to me. then i reached a point where i couldn't stay any longer. i saw a light far off on the beach, and it was panning the beach as if too look for people. this light was real. i could tell as it never changed, not matter how much i blinked or focused, which means it was real. it was getting closer and closer, at that point i freaked out completely and split back to where my friends where staying. i went down the path to these train tracks and i looked back and saw a girl standing right behind me, i screamed then blinked and focused and realised it was only a tree.
that was the most intense experience i'd ever had.
a few nights later i took three pills (the other time i only took one), these pills were mediocre-shit. but after coming down and smoking weed i would start to drift off slowly into a weird hole in my mind. everything would black out and i would be somewhere else. when someone said my name it felt like this weird return to reality. similar to falling or being dowsed with cold water. if you have ever tried making yourself pass out from blowing on you thumbs , it was similar to that "coming back" except much quicker."
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the underlying motif in these hallucinations are lots of different people and noise that never dies as if you are still partying but your alone and no-ones around. they are most intense alone. i was wondering if anyone has gotten these before. people say they hallucinate but they never describe them in such detail as my marmost has seen then.