Journal - descent into oblivion (coming off opiates)

[rokman nash]

This is a story about my friend Dave. Dave has a good life,married to a wonderful woman 18 yrs,3 kids 25 b,22b,&20g.Dave started his own business in 2000 and has been moderately well VERY successfull.Dave is now 43 as of Dec 7 and has been doing vicodin oxys and heroin for 4 years. Correction the H has only cropped up the last 6 months.Now this was not new to Dave, he grew up in Detroit in the late 70s early 80s.Dave smoked his first joint at 9, took acid and mescaline at 11.

Dave always was a rebel if you weren't suposed to do it you could bet he would be first in line.Through school Dave partied like animal, fortunatly never had to study, made grades and got out of school w/only a few minor scrapes with the law.

Dave joined the US army in 83 did well in basic training and ended up in the Republic of Panama for a 3 year hitch.At that time 90 percent of the cocaine going to the US stopped here.Dave and his buddies certainly got thier share.3-4 day binges were the norm.Prescription drugs were OTC back then and they took them all.Through all this Dave performed this job in an exemplary fashion.Dave could do coke for 3 days take 10 blue valiums to come down and then run 5 miles.

Oh to be young again

Dave finished his hitch came home in '86 got married and led a quiet life for many years. I know i'm leaving some stuff out here, but for the sake of this story it doesnt matter.

Flash to 1999
Dave is the type of guy who can sell ice to eskimos. He leaves his high paying job to go out on his own.Dave is very sucessfull and in a year is making good money.Big problem, Dave has fucked up his back.Doctor gives him a scrip for 30 vic10s. Dave eats those 4-5 days. He goes back for more doc hooks him up and says no more. (wonder why?)

Dave has to find a source and does. He does vics for the next 2 years.His source tells him about this new super drug called oxycontin. The first time Dave took it he knew he was in BIG trouble.

Dave did the vocodin/oxy boogie for the next couple years.He knows this is a problem but can deal with it later. The money is rolling in.A young woman of his aquaintaince tells him hes fucking up his liver with all these pills and suggests some powder (H).Dave says fuck yes lets do it. He took his first snort 6 months ago and since then he has become someone I do not recognize.

In the four years Dave has spent approximately 300,000 on drugs w/o any member of his family knowing.Well that as changed on 11/26 Dave decided this shit had to stop. He called and had his wife meet at home and told her the whole sorid tale.His wife did not bail on him, she has some huge anger and trust issues, but Dave will deal with them.

So the plan was to kick cold on 11/30,get all the family out of town.The last thing dave took was 60mg methodone on 11/30 @5am.Dave had some klonopin to sleep and exedrin migraine thats it.Dave figured this would take 3-maybe4 days to get past the pysical part.Dave is a dumb cocknocker.Its now been 11 days and still having problems,not enough to go back,but enough to make me think about it.

Ill add more later tired now

roc NashvilleTN
do the day dont let the day do you

rokman nash added 16 Minutes and 35 Seconds later...

sorry about the grammar and typing guys.

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