Sexual - Prostituting yourself for heroin?

[dyingtomorrow]

SWIM never has, but thinks about it a lot now that he is in languid heroin-less misery and doesn't have a dime. Before he got addicted to heroin, he would get propositioned a lot by men (especially at the gym), even though he isn't homosexual. SWIM's brother once played a joke on him, telling him he met a guy that would pay $1000 to fuck him, and SWIM had a very hard time thinking about it before SWIM's brother told him it was a joke and threw some bags at him.

SWIM is on the asexual end of heterosexual, but also relativistic enough not to care about labels or have any emotional attachment to his body.

SWIM wonders if anyone would be willing to share SWIThem's experiences? Particularly the first time it happened, how it felt afterwards, or any bad experiences.

I know this is super personal so if anyone does respond it would be very much appreciated.

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	Trust me, it's better to just sell drugs or something.
	Important topic to discuss, even if it is difficult.
	brave to bring up such a topic and put swiself in the line of fire but this is reality for many addicts

[teddybearpicnics]

doesn't swiy just think about getting a job..? swim knows how hard it is to find one, but living in chi-town aren't there all kinds of restaurants that need a cook or something? swim is actually making decent money at a fine-dine restaurant being a cook, and is how he supports his habit, along with supporting other peoples habits occasionally...he knows this is not the reply swiy is looking for...but there are all kinds of risks that go along with that, not trying to talk swiy out of it...or has any preference on the situation...if you need a dollar you've the day to make one, so anyway swiy sees fit. but really...be a male stripper before prostitution
.teddy

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good advice

[dyingtomorrow]

SWIM's not actively trying to become a prostitute, just wanted to hear some stories (BTW thanks for the PM stories). and think about if he ever would, because right now if someone offered he probably wouldn't be able to refuse. SWIM knows a couple who prostitutes for heroin, and it's pretty ugly.

As for the job, SWIM would have no problem getting a "good" salary job in a number of fields with his education and experience, but to SWIM, the idea of working 9-5 seems worse than death. Literally.

[Value Of Existence]

Fuck I'd sell myself just because if there were any buyers. Unfortunately people don't wanna fuck the dude that looks like Beavis.

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please use SWIM, especially talking about incriminating yourself

[Lisa J]

SWIM never has though she has a few friends of both sexes that have done it. They just seem to shut it out and treat it as a necessary evil to get them what they need, it seems easier for the women perhaps because it's heterosexual sex, the men are less open about it for obvious reasons. None of the men SWIM knows who prostitute themselves are actually gay, some have girlfriends & some of these are also prostitutes.
SWIM'S supplier offered her a very good reduction for a henry (8th) only a week ago, in return for sexual favours, SWIM politely declined and payed in full, if SWIM can't afford it she don't use it.

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	that's a good philosophy ... easier said than done for some people :)
	Very well said.

[maletwickenham]

A friend of Swims allowed him self to be blown for £15 which helped him but he felt it was very degrading even though he wasn't doing anything. He also said he finds it hard to be with females now (can't get it up) and wouldn't recommend it. But the not getting it up could be linked to other drug use. This happened around a year a go and he has not had sex since. Swim thinks if swiy can get the same offer and feels he can handle it. Closing the eyes and putting the mind somewhere else may be more easyly done than doing other sexual acts.

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its informative and so far the best reply ive seen to this thread

[teddybearpicnics]

this was always a question in swims brain...why would someone pay to get a load in their mouth?

[dyingtomorrow]

Originally Posted by teddybearpicnics

this was always a question in swims brain...why would someone pay to get a load in their mouth?

Yah SWIM always wondered that too. Like in Basketball Diaries why that dude paid him to let him suck his dick. One one think that the payer would want THEIR dick sucked, or anal sex. Heroin addict dick is probably the most dangerous dick that can be sucked, on top of it.

[fiveleggedrat]

Originally Posted by teddybearpicnics

this was always a question in swims brain...why would someone pay to get a load in their mouth?

Same reason someone pays to put grab a boob or lick a hole?

[Junkhead23]

Id get blown by a guy for money hell yes. Blowing another guy however makes me feel slightl ill

[maletwickenham]

Originally Posted by teddybearpicnics

this was always a question in swims brain...why would someone pay to get a load in their mouth?

Swim wondered this to, Swim asked and the reply was he loves cum.
Taking into count the risk of STIs and all this could be linked to both fetish and taste. After all anyone who views porn must have seen the term made famous by Clerks 2, Ass to mouth.

Heighten Sexual excitement could be to blame, the risk factor of doing something like that could also provide motivation.

[Sib]

Watch this http://www.mininova.org/tor/1800908 dope sick love NYC style.

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	Good Find
	Interesting and sad movie. Thanks for sharing.

[Tweak92]

You wanna get aids just for a hit or two of heroin?Please think with your brain and don't let your addictions control you.Just imagine someone offers you heroin for some sex and you,of course agree.
Not long after that, when you find out you have AIDS or an STD you're gonna wish you had never done it.Trust me, it's better to just sell drugs or something.

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good information

[podge]

If someone comes to the point of considering prostitution for a drug habit then its at the very least time to seek serious help, from friends or from anywhere else available. If ones own morals take second place to drug use then its time to try kick whatever habit swiy has acquired. Swim wouldnt do anything himself that he wouldnt also be comfortable with a family member or close friend doing.... if one has children or hopes to have one someday then perhaps do what swiy would like their own child do in such a situation.

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good answer!

[maletwickenham]

Swim was talking to a male last night who was paid £100 to be done up the ass (condom) he said although he is not gay he found it a pleasurable experience. He said he had turned down people before offering crack for sex.

He said he sees it as work and nothing word with it.

Thought this story would be needed here.

I can find out more information if needed.

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thanks for the contribution

[teddybearpicnics]

good thread...this is a turning point for some junkies, swim has seen it happen and it is not pretty the outcome, sure you get high, but that high comes down, and then you feel even worse than being dope sick, until the point that becomes swiy's life...just save money and buy a bundle, sell it, and then buy another, and sell it until you can be the man, and not have to worry about this shit if you are in that dire need.
.teddy

[rogerrinseout]

Dealing over being bummed any day of the week.

[RaverHippie]

While never out of addiction, my raver friend who is closer to gay than bi, has resorted to forms of prostitution to pay for recreational drugs. It never phased him at all and felt like it was a win-win situation; drug money and sexual relief to a degree.

EDIT: I could get him to elaborate if it would benefit anyone.

[Zendo]

Originally Posted by maletwickenham

A friend of Swims allowed him self to be blown for £15 which helped him but he felt it was very degrading even though he wasn't doing anything. He also said he finds it hard to be with females now (can't get it up) and wouldn't recommend it. But the not getting it up could be linked to other drug use. This happened around a year a go and he has not had sex since. Swim thinks if swiy can get the same offer and feels he can handle it. Closing the eyes and putting the mind somewhere else may be more easyly done than doing other sexual acts.

Swim exactly the same here......
Slept with 40 year old junkies to get some of there gear, swim did this from 15-19 and majorly damaged swims ability to get with other girls now, the feeling of being used went deep into swims soul,
swim hasnt shaken this in over 10 years now,
It doesnt matter how attracted swim feels to a girl, as soon as swims are naked.... swim just feels like hes being used, even tho he knows its only for fun, that feeling just won't go, swim gets angry and tells her to fuk off, or dumps her the next day... pretty stupid, (cant let anyone too close ya know)
swim cannot get it up also, and if he does, a flashback quickly sends him packing lol >_>

[Solinari]

I'd agree with Podge here, anyone even considering it as an idea needs help, seriously. My fiend has done some low shit, selling his mothers stuff from the house for example, stealing cheques and he once ran away with the money that under age drinkers gave him for booze. He feels guilty about it all, even to the point where he can't smoke cannabis because it makes him think too much about all the shit he did. But never did he consider blowing guys for money let alone getting pumped up the ass.

From what i have read the original poster has been an addict for 2 years, that is nothing, i can tell from the posts he makes that he still thinks heroin is great and a good thing in his life, or at least it seems to come in waves (perhaps when you're high?). It's not a great thing, it's a stupid thing that is a LOT of BULLSHIT. Daily hunts for money through thieving or selling your possessions (my fiend did a LOT of this, he used to call it selling his soul) running around the known buyers desperate to get just enough for a bag, selling items worth several times more than a bag, the giving the money over for at least a bag a day is a complete nonsense.

Someone may feel like prostituting them self would be no big deal, but after that first encounter and maybe after several more including rape, beatings and more chance of getting HIV , Hep C will take its toll and make someone feel worthless. My fiend has known junkie girls that used to get money this way and it's their biggest regret out of everything they have done.

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	comparing the first post and this post
	perfectly true- you do feel rather worthless and regret it. even when youre high.
	Great honest advice.
	brilliant advice

[mickey_bee]

Originally Posted by Solinari

I'd agree with Podge here, anyone even considering it as an idea needs help, seriously.

Not necessarily, I'd say it depends on the person.......although by no means the majority, there are some people out there who are mature enough sexually, and simply not as emotionally attatched to their bodies as other people.

I mean there are prostitutes out there who aren't on drugs and don't need the money, they just do it because they feel they can, and it gets em a shitload of cash. Granted, it's the minority.
If you're comfortable with it then why not?

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good point

[maletwickenham]

Look at porn stars such as peter north he has done gay porn for money. Swim feels if swiy can know that he can live with it and accept it as a way of making money then theres nothing much wrong with it. Swim does feel it would be hard for a very straight guy to be able to do it though.

[Wehr]

Swim feels lucky to have a pretty good paying job but would sell his load of cum to anyone willing to pay for it! Swim would never suck another man off for money or dope.... Would much rather be dopesick than too stoop to that level!

[enquirewithin]

There are are just too many health and legal problems, not to mention that there are some very sick people preying on prostitutes, with going down that route, morality aside.

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Good Point

[Junkhead23]

SWIM knows this is veering off the original subject but who out there thinks prostitution should be legalised? People from the UK will know about what happened to 5 prostitutes a couple of years ago (murdered). SWIM thinks to prevent these kind of incidents it should be legalised