Drug Free for 2009???

[beena]

As some of you may know SWIM has been addicted to crack-cocaine for nine years and opiates including morphine, tramadol and heroin for about two years. SWIM has unsuccessfully tried to stop on many occasions. As a member of this forum for two years (in fact SWIM joined when she was trying to come off crack cocaine, relapsed with that, started abusing weak opiates such as tramadol, later morphine and then heroin and the whole saga has been documented on threads/posts on this forum!), SWIM has struggled to keep clean. Getting off, as many of you will have experienced personally, is only half the struggle: staying off is where the real work begins.
Recently SWIM went to stay with her folks in the Channel Islands for three weeks in a bid to get clean but it didn't work and since October her drug-use has slowly been escalating again until now, when it is back to her pre-Channel island break levels.
Anyway, one thing that SWIM can say about herself is that she never gives up giving up! And SWIM is going to say now that she plans to stop again over Christmas, so hopefully 2009 will be new beginnings for SWIM and her partner (who also desperately wants to stop).
SWIM just thought she would start a thread for anyone else who is perhaps in a similar position and would like to publically pledge on this forum that they too are going to try and stay drug-free in 2009. I know it's hard but SWIM will try and keep in touch with every single person who is brave enough to join up on this thread and maybe together we'll be stronger.
Here's looking forward to 2009 ...