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90s young girl reveals many drug use pictures on the internet

This is a cold QQ homepage, pure black colors, white font, decadent expression…its owner is a girl who has just turned 18 years old. Gradually delving into the homepage’s content, a bone-chilling coldness can be felt, surrounding the body. Drugs, fighting…makes people want to ask: Just what kind of lifestyle dominates this girl’s youth?
“Come see how frightening today’s children are. Not only do they do drugs, they take pictures of it too, and upload them for the public to see.” Last night, a netizen contacted this newspaper, providing a link to a homepage.



Her homepage shocked the netizen

After clicking into the website, I first heard the intense music of a DJ playing in a nightclub, accompanied by the groaning and heavy breathing of a man imitating a woman. Looking further, everything was shocking.
“The room has been booked, the foil placed, the ice pipe prepared. The fire is burning, the ice is running, let’s start, shall we?” This was a caption at the top of the homepage’s front page. From her profile information, her name screen name is “Lost Heart,” she was born in May 1990, only recently turned 18 years old, and her hobby is “tragic weeping.”
Everything she shares about herself only makes one feel heavy and sad.
Graduated From: Jail
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Signature: Decadent, lonely beauty, heartbreaking…. Chose the dark night, chose loneliness, select decadence, doomed to a one person world, I chose degenerate.
In her hobbies, she writes that her best music instrument is the gun, and that she likes “triad/gang/black society violence” movies.


Her pictures include many scenes of drug use and fights

Looking at her pictures, there is a high probability that she did indeed graduate from jail. …Amongst her photos is a “Wanted” picture, the head on which appears to be her’s. Looking at the album’s other directories, everything is shocking. There are 10 albums in her folders, amongst them two were called “ice” and “high powder, want fashion,” both of which were viewable by the public.

Inside, we can see some scenes were taken at home, and some scenes were in KTV rooms. In some pictures, there are plates/trays with straws placed on coffee tables, with dozens of small bags of white powder and stacks of hundred RMB notes next to them. Some pictures have pipes with water for filtering the ice and the tubes used to inhale the fumes, with people looking intoxicated. It is said: they are using specialized tools for doing ice. Other pictures include two very young girls sharing a tray using straws to do drugs. Some of these girls doing drugs, in some pictures, are scantily dressed or even naked.

In the other folder named “triad/gang/black society,” the pictures include men with various tattoos on their bodies, in various poses. Some are holding knives or guns pointed at each other, some look like they are fighting, and some pictures show injuries from fights, not a single picture is without violence. Amongst these pictures is a guy “Lost Heart” refers to as “My beloved.” He can also be found doing drugs in many of the other pictures.

Her diary talked about committing suicide

I tried to get in touch with this girl, but I did not receive any replies, so there is no way to understand her inner feelings, we can only see what her QQ diary reveals. Aside from some topics about emotions, her diary has some content like these: “China triad/gang/black society boss name list”, “I am not a virgin, I am simply self-righteous”, “Adult Theatre” and so on. Through some of the content, you can see how she has changed over time (Note: deletions):
2008, May 16
He said on the phone that in two more hours, he can be at my side. I am very excited. Meeting in person is a lot more real than seeing each other over webcam, it feels like we have known each other for so long, I feel like I am the world’s luckiest girl. No matter what happens, no matter how many girls he has, I still believe that when he is in my arms, in his heart is only me. I dare not demand that I am the only girl he likes, only hope to be the one girl has trusts to keep no secrets from, whom he can talk about anything with.

2008, June 23
Life recently has been very tiring, lonely, and helpless. Everyday I go online to find happiness, but where is my happiness? To tell the truth, when I am alone at home, I really want to die, want to disappear forever, never to appear again. I want the whole world to leave me alone.
2008, August 1
Recently several things that happened one after another that have made me numb, hehe, ever since I met him, my life has been as he said: colorful, or as my older sister says, the stuff of movies. Hehe, there is nothing I can do. Once I have chosen, I cannot go back. I will bravely face what comes next, bravely push through. People have to walk so many paths, no one can foresee what will happen next.
I trust him, that he has his reasons for whatever he does, so I will support him. Only after meeting him have I known what is love, and will always remember in my heart. Our unspoken relationship is one only you and I know.



2008, August 14
Never have I smoked until I have gotten dizzy or drank until I wanted to vomit, but yesterday I really drank too much, But it was not intentional, I only wanted to use alcohol to forget some things. But I was wrong, it actually made me hurt more, alone on a bed crying. Without hearing from you, it felt like I had returned to before. It again made me afraid, my world reduced to waiting. Do not know if this kind of waiting, this kind of worry, this kind of fear will last for how long, I only know that I might soon collapse, that soon I can no longer bear it anymore.

The news article is long and continues but mostly about other drug users, doctors, sociologists, parents, police, etc. and what they think, not really about “Lost Heart” anymore.


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Reputation Comments on this post:

	interesting find
	Interesting, thanks for sharing.