Effects - Was this MDMA, Speed, or both? (effects) Help

[Swimster]

I had a dream last night, My name was swim: I never tried MDMA, nor Methamphetamine. Swim got 2 "Ecstacy" pills a number of days ago. They were unusually small. ~6x3 milimeter. Generic looking monkey face imprint(NOT BAPES).

...Anyway, swim was stimulated, non-paranoid, quite subtle high/euphoria. Almost natural feeling. He took 1; 1 hour later the other because he was kinda liking the high. Swim is not a total drug newb. He has used propylhexedrine and cocaine, and a few other thing before. But NOT a regular user. Swim expected the experience to feel loving like Tramadol has for him. He just felt a subtle high, mostly in-consistent warm rushes(subtle though). He started walking around through neigborhood.

Basically swims effects: He didn't plan things, everything felt neutral, he felt like whatever he did was like, whatever. Euphoria seemed to be associated with changing what swim was doing, although he felt like he didn't need to change because he was who he was type thing(sounds weird, i know). Wasn't too doped-up feeling aware, he felt more unaware, and never seeked to try to be aware, like having no control, decisions weren't made in his concious mind. Is this Empathy?? Swim had no wories, btw.

He was totaly convinced that everything he did was not a lie.

The crash, came-on subtle, at end of night felt like a devistating death-depression was to come, but at same time, wasn't too woried. took 25 mg's of Sertraline before bed(although, swim hasnt been on them prior). Couldn't stop thinking of things that were irelevent(probly psychosis) during "sleep"(did not sleep, layed in bed). Crash occured in morning aswell, felt inevitable helplessness about everything, but he occupied swims mind to forget about it, and subsided in about 3-4 hours.

Next day still has circulatory speed(heart pumping fast) and a little hard.

Nothing apeared to be "overwhelming" like everyone claims is supposed to be.

Now swim swim feels like his anxiety is kind of squashed, and worries less about time. Swim used to always worry about where he was at and what time it was. Now, not much is planned, more empathized.

Although, swim took tramadol today.

I have other questions: Are thoughts the ego itself? Also, swim hears that Stimulants increase ego alot, where as MDMA dissolves it, true?

Thanks for any help, could use notes, tips, kick in the ass, etc...Oh and for once in about a few years, swims anxiety, control, and depression is not apearent.

P.S: my speach may sound messed up, but i am intelegent, just not too motivated to a pear like a "smart guy".