Journal - SWIM Quit Smoking Weed After 9 YEARS STRAIGHT! (LONG STORY WARNING)

[WANTS2LOVELIFE]

SWIM passed me this message .......


well my reasons are that i havent fealt happy in months... i was so depressed that i even seen my doctor to get an anti depressant / anxiety pill (Lexipro) well i even stopped doing those at the same time as i quit smokin maryjane (7 days ago) i was on the lexipro for a few months but they didnt help much but that couldve been for a number of reasons. Im sorry people ive got a long story for ya's. my point is im trying to straighten my life out and heres how im gonna start. well 9 years with pot, 9 years and still goin with alcohal. well i did coke, lsd, shrooms when i was 15... i dont like to trip so trippings not a problem. well i turned 16 and did E and ketimene (special k) non-stop once or twice a week for 2-3 years and stopped on my own. also while i was 16 maybe 17 i also tryed christal meth twice in four day sessions months apart and never did it again. ive done countless amounts of whipits within the years of 15 to 22 also. ive also smoked crack about 20-30 times in the ages of 19 to 20 or so. then i picked up more habbits after i quit all the above drugs (besides pot and alcohol) i started eating alot of hydrocodone every day by the handful and snorting ocycottins, well i started getting very very sick when i couldnt get them and i hated it and that gave me motivation to quit at the age of 22, BUT to numb the always needing to be high situation i started buying Suboxone (opiate blocker) off the street and i may have to do them for the rest of my life unfortuneatly. well as i started my life story at the top of my post im here ive quit everything but cigerettes (1 pack a day from 14 till now) suboxone and alcohal... i really want to clean up my act and get a good job, have kids and marry my girlfriend of a year and a half eventually soon. I hope my depression will go away and hope i didnt do permenent damage when it comes to depression. it seems after only 7 or 8 days of quitting weed and my anti depressant i think i maybe starting to feel better but i dont know for sure yet. Im an atheist but i will take any prayers or anything.... i want life and i dont think i did or even cared when i was younger... i made so many dumb choices that i cant take back... i with i could go back to 5th grade all over again with the knolege i have now and redo everything and graduate as well.

sorry, i know my grammer, spelling, and punctuation isnt perfect but i needed to spill my guts out to everyone and maybe change peoples minds on drugs. sorry to bother everyone with my HUGE LONG sob story.

Thanks for reading,
Matt

WANTS2LOVELIFE added 27 Minutes and 47 Seconds later...

sorry, "swim" just realized swim cannot talk about him or herself in the ways swim just did.... swim wont be doing that again. and sorry for the wall o text

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should of used swim

[enquirewithin]

Interesting story-- it must be about someone else, not you?

Weed is not very likely to permanently damage anyone. Quitting anti-depressants is said to be much harder. There is not too much point in worrying about what damage has been done (if any)-- look to the future.

[Spare Chaynge]

Well the good news is.. All is not lost.. Swiy has realized this at the young age of 23! If that is indeed swiys age.. You have plenty of time to get swiys shit together before the dreaded age of 30.

Swiy will start to feel lots better after a period of time. Swim use to be an addict to fentanyl and went through all the same shit that swiy did.. Hes now at a community college, re learning all his math and english skills.. He loves it..

A 12 step program is one option to help you clean up your life.. It has amends and tries to adress why you used in the first place.. Many times it is resentments against ones self and other.. Low self esteem ect... Also the support network is good.

Please post here swims will help you there are couple of good swims who have good clean time here.. Swim himself only has 8 months but. In that 8 months everything is so so much better.. cars, girls, and the best is he actually enjoys life for what it is..

Please countinue to post ... good luck


Oh yes do NOT try and change peoples minds here about drugs.. Swims life was ruined by the drugs he choose to ingest...

But he does not go around lecturing people about drugs are bad.. Because the fact is drugs are not bad.. they help with so so many things..

It was not the drugs it was how swiy choose to use the drugs that really screwed everything up!

Its kinda like saying cheeseburgers are bad.. well they are not if you eat 4 cheeseburgers a day for 20 years it could be bad for you..


swim never said 30 is old to who ever took rep off from swim...

[WANTS2LOVELIFE]

Yes I am 23 and yeah you are right some drugs are good but MOST arent. it really sucks that SWIM chose to use opiates cuz now SWIM cant handle not using his suboxones that he pays a lot for on the street.

[enquirewithin]

^SWIY obviously made the the right decision. (Too much can be bad for people's state of mind.) Hope things get better in the future with a clear mind!

[mseerob]

Originally Posted by enquirewithin

^SWIY obviously made the the right decision. (Too much can be bad for people's state of mind.) Hope things get better in the future with a clear mind!

Thank you enquirewithin!

Swim use to smoke weed everyday and swim means like 2-3 joints a day (sometimes 5 joints a day when with friends) Tolerance built up and the
excitement that swim use to get slowing started to fade away. It wasnt even fun, it was more of a habit. So Swim decided to take 2 months break of weed and the mental cravings for weed did start to go away, but stupid swim he decided to give it another chance and see what would happen like most users would say "if you take a long break.. the high would be soo much better" well that's bull shit for swim because it wasn't any better then what happened?.. Swim began smoking AGAIN everyday and the high's became duller and duller. Swim cant see how anyone can smoke
everyday, unless you were prescribed by the doctors to smoke everyday to relieve any pain for any sickness that one may have, Swim feels that if anyone smokes everyday, they are just plain stupid. Swim has had enough fun but swim believes its time to move on in life and forget about using them. Swim has had experience with weed, hash, cocaine and mushrooms so Swim is no stranger when it comes too drugs. Marijuana can make people feel tired and lazy, there is no argument there. Enough people has told swim of this as well.

Like swim said earlier on the weekend swim doesnt mind drinking whiskey or rum (swim is a fan of hard liquor) but swim has now put an end to marijuana. For anyone that plans to quit with the use of marijuana, swim would like to say that is a great decision to make.

mseerob added 10 Minutes and 6 Seconds later...

Also wanted to add. This talk about "moderation is key" is total bull shit if swiy is
addicted to weed or any substance. Swiy can't smoke weed in moderation because ifswiy does, swiy may end up smoking weed everyday!!! Swiy will get intense cravings too smoke and swiy will ignore that stupid quote "moderation is the key! Oh besides swim had a long day at work swim doesnt mind to blaze a spliff and watch a movie before swim goes to bed" Yeah yeah well that's bull shit.

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Swiy can't smoke weed in moderation because ifswiy does, swiy may end up smoking weed everyday!!! : So True

[hippie_lain]

ill pray for you man. good luck

[Desertfox]

Just to let you know Mseerob, Alchohol has far more negartive effects on your health and well-being than marijuana ever could, so SWIM would rethink the decision to abstain from marijuna but continue swiy's alcohol use. MJ is the best medicine, any bad feelings are melted away at a moments inhale, while alcohol just puts a mask over pain, and allows you to be blind and ignorant to the world around you without actually helping you in anyway, but bringing you a moment's closer to death. Stop taking opiates, suboxone, alchohol, they are getting in the way of what the MJ does. jsut sit back toke and let it heal you. no other drug can provide this or be a replacemnt to weed.

SmokeWeedEveryday

[MarioC99]

I think that if you take it one day at a time you'll be fine. Don't listen to negative people. Listen to yourself. You are the one who made the choice to quit. Great job!! Now give yourself a reason to stay positive and you'll be fine. Remeber there always is tomorrow and you're giving yourself a brighter sunrise.

[st3v3]

wow, tell SWY I say congratulations, it's challenging indeed but SWY is no way alone in this.
substances will always be there, but valuing each breathe and life itself, and everything that one still has to live up to and can get is more important.

"motivation is like showering, it must be done daily, or it will go away."

[cannabis-sam]

Well swim quit the whole daily smoking thing, he finds if he smokes daily his resistance becomes stupidly high and it's just a waste of money smoking everyday anyway. Swim smoked everyday for a few months and had no trouble quitting. Swim also finds smoking high quality ganja far more pleasurable than mids. Swim finds that he has trouble not smoking if the weed is there and he's not doing anything, it's kind of like when theres a large bar of chocolate and you think you might just have on piece because it tastes so damn good, same with weed it's just like an irristable treat for swim. Swim now smokes about 3 times a week and enjoys it each time.

Swim thinks people who claim to be addicted to cannabis probably don't have a lot of will power, physical withdrawel symptons are non existant, it's probably not the cannabis itself causing the problem just that it feels good so swiy wants to keep doing it. Quitting weed is just a case of not calling your dealer and not buying weed (and telling your friends not to smoke around you).

Swim doesn't think the original poster can really say wheather the depression comes from cannabis as other drugs are still being used and there could also be other contributing factors.

The only negative effects swim can think of is possible short term memory loss and not having much motivation if you smoke all day every day (just like some one who drinks from the time they wake up probably wouldn't be a great functioning member of society)

If swiy finds not smoking hard then the best possible thing to do is to get busy, swim finds when he's doing things wheather it be college work, playing computers games, cleaning cooking or watching dirty films on the internet he generally forgets he even has smoke.

Also if swiy still enjoys it theres nothing wrong with smoking occasionally or cutting down, swim finds he feels groggy and slightly depressed if he smokes all day (from the moment he wakes up) so yeah smoking in the morning isn't great but if you wanna have a joint on a friday evening theres nothing wrong with it.

Hope this post was in some way helpful.

[Terrence]

Hi,

I feel one must fix up an exercise program. This will not only act as an effective stress-buster, but will make you healthier. You need to recover from all the nicotine damage, after all – and exercise will help your system. Start with small things an quit smoking forever.