About to relapse

[Spare Chaynge]

Swim use to be a very bad off fentanyl and benzo addict. Now hes almost 8 months clean and sober. Swim is on the edge of smoking pot.. No longer are things like smoking pot and drinking such a disturbing thought.. Swim knows that once he does drugs theres no stopping. Swim does not know what to do.

His main problem is boredom hes only lived in this city for about 7 months... Swim is highly upset because it seems he gets arrested or royally fucks up in life about ever 6-8 months and it seems to be repeating again... If only swim can make it to a year maybe he can break this cycle... This is a horrible horrible cycle in swims life for the past three years he has been in and out of jail,rehab and the streets.

He has allmost everything he could possibly want right now.. but he only has a couple of friends here and just feels out of place.

swim is gaining back everything he lost.. he use to be in a very well respected university and he might get back in...swims desperate.

[chillinwill]

Originally Posted by Spare Chaynge

Swim use to be a very bad off fentanyl and benzo addict. Now hes almost 8 months clean and sober. Swim is on the edge of smoking pot.. No longer are things like smoking pot and drinking such a disturbing thought.. Swim knows that once he does drugs theres no stopping. Swim does not know what to do.

His main problem is boredom hes only lived in this city for about 7 months... Swim is highly upset because it seems he gets arrested or royally fucks up in life about ever 6-8 months and it seems to be repeating again... If only swim can make it to a year maybe he can break this cycle... This is a horrible horrible cycle in swims life for the past three years he has been in and out of jail,rehab and the streets.

He has allmost everything he could possibly want right now.. but he only has a couple of friends here and just feels out of place.

swim is gaining back everything he lost.. he use to be in a very well respected university and he might get back in...swims desperate.

do whatever it takes not to start smoking weed or drinking or whatever else SWIY wants to do....if it helps, I am here if SWIY needs someone to talk to and try to keep yourself busy...keep posting on here and let people know how SWIY feels....SWIY can stay clean since they have already proved this for 8 months

[Salvinorin A]

Honestly....boredom is what swim finds to be the main cause of relapsing back into the cycle....because it's when swiy's board that swiy has the time to think of all the reasons why it'd be okay to just do drugs "once."

So all swiy needs to do is cure boredom...something healthy. Exercise is a great way!

But be careful, don't do a sport where swiy can get tired easily.....or something with a harsh learning curve since swiy can get bored of the sport really quickly and end up with the same problem.

Suggestions: rock climbing! (specifically a gym).
Swimming...also would need a gym...but as opposed to the plain torture of running...swimming just feels good if swiy doesn't over work swiy's self.

If not a sport....games? video games (pick a new one if they get boring...some with some sort of plot to them...a want to keep playing).....SWIM HIGHLY does NOT recommend video games as a substitute because they are also very unhealthy....but they can very easily make the time pass.....pass that very time that swim is thinking about drugs.

If swiy gets into something and sticks to it....the cravings tend to space out further and further. And swiy might get some bad ones.....but swiy should be able to catch swiy's self if the craving gets REALLY bad...and in that case...immediately find something to do...or think about something to do.

That's how swim pulled through...getting off dxm. He still does other drugs now...and thinks about dxm..sometimes harshly (and rellapsed once...was about 6 months)....but he just celebrated his year anniversary from that day. The other drugs swim does though aren't physically (or much psychologically) addictive (things like salvia....which is excellent as an anti-addicitve drug). If swiy does get to serious relapse...like swiy is seconds away from doping.....grab some salvia....no joke..this will keep ya away from most things for at least a day.

Oh and definitely stay on track...swiy seems to be doing well so far.....being in school is great for staying off the cycle....because even though swiy might not have everything figured out presently.....the education will almost always come in handy later....so if swiy does eventually avoid the cycle forever.....the education will definitely be something that swiy will be happy having in swiy's pocket (if that's not already obvious now).

Best of luck,
Sal-A

[cnsns2ccl2]

The boredom has to be cured. Fix it in a way other than doing drugs. Find a hobby, join something, take a class, start an activity, anything that interests swiy. Is swiy into watching sports? Swim wasn't to watching sports before but recently found watching hockey a good way to relax and a good hobby to distract her and cure boredom (mind you swim is in Canada living in a NHL city so the hockey scene is awesome).

[Spare Chaynge]

Thank yall for your post.. swim read them last night and felt a lot better after reading them he decided it was best just to go to sleep with positive thoughts.

He did... He had horrible dreams of the devil taking the form of a tileamine bottle getting swim in all sorts of trouble.. it would shift around from places and get him caught for pos multiple times.. for example if shifted from under his car seat to his hand and he was arrested and then it shifted into his pocket when the final pat down was being performed in jail...

Besides all the unussual dreams last night swim is doing much better.

Thank you all.

[hippie_lain]

hey spare change. Its been awhile since ive been here but i will be praying for you everyday, i dont know if you believe in satan but i will pray for protection from all the shit and lies . Both of us need to remember that person lost it all to drugs. Everything good was taken from him but it doesnt have to be that way anymore. Find your courage to say and mean it to yourself that you wont let it beat you again. Faith is what it takes man, work the program and do what works. we got the wisdom and we know what life is better. good luck friend.

[Spare Chaynge]

This infraction swim just got is about to cause swim to relapse.. swim has to start working a better program.

[ai]

swiy has to find something to live for. bordom is a big trigger and is swim's as well.

talk to someone. tell people like doing now.

[Spare Chaynge]

Yes swim goes to school and lives for live music shows... swim guess it would be good to find another hobby swim can do at home besides video games, tv, and school work...

Swim has been thinking about taking a fencing class at his school... seems like it would be more of an spirit lifter than sociology.

[MarioC99]

There is always something that can replace the feelings that drugs give. Life was created before drugs. You have to live and have something to live for. Boredom is not a reason to start. Instaead of resorting back to what swim always does. Why doesn't swim take a chance and put himself out there forsomething different. Live for tomorrow because there will always be a tomorrow. If swim doesn't like what he chose today then sleep on it and wake up tomorrow and try something else. Swim has way more to lose with choosing drugs than choosing life. Good luck and God Bless.

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