Just started taking subs

[gezza26]

Hi All,

I've been battling opiate addictions for the last 4 years. I'm 26 and started on codeine at 22, now graduated to Heroin 6 months ago. In between I've covered most of the spectrum of opiates and detoxed 3 times.

Anyhow I started taking 6mg of Sub last week coming from Heroin. I had a horrible night of detox, no sleep, cold sweats ect ect. 30 minutes after taking my first dose I felt a great relief. It's like my body just said "ahhh that's what I wanted...". I feel so great on the subs. I have incredible energy, less anxiety and depression. I haven't felt this good for quite some time. Thing is I'm so happy on the subs I'd stay on them for the rest of my life if possible.

I relapse basically because I never seem to be able to beat dope sickness. Sure enough I feel better, but I always still feel achey and restless even 1 year clean. My chances of beating it are slim and I can accept a lifetime of taking something if I feel so much better. Subs seem perfect as they elimate that and I dont feel super high, but I just have a nice buzz going on. If the subs poop out, i think i'll go on methadone. I never want to go through methadone withdrawal so once again it would be a lifetime commitment. I just think I function better with opiates, though long term 'done scares me a little. I notice most methadone guys at the pharmacy seem quite zombie like. I don't want to wind up like that. I guess a low dose would be better.

Do people have any warnings or considerations on long term methadone, besides withdrawals? Does it cause depression ect??

P.S. Why does everyone refer to themselves as SWIM around here??

Cheers