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Can SWIM Have Another Bad Trip?
Here is the situation. SWIM has had 9-10 mushroom trips, more than half of which could be considered "bad". The rest were very enjoyable. SWIM has eaten acid on two occasions. Let me rephrase... SWIM has eaten good acid on two occasions. Two hits the first time and about four days later, three hits. The first acid trip was intense and amazing. SWIM only felt uncomfortable for an on and off period of no more than 1 hour. It wasn't horrible, just one hallucination which SWIM can never again try to describe made him believe he knew how the Universe worked. And the experience was so intense he felt like he couldn't know the truth... but enough of that. The rest of the trip was very emotional and wonderful. The second time SWIM ate acid, he did an extra hit. But this time, he had a bit of a party at his house. He didn't plan to, but more people showed up and beer was available so everyone started setting up beer pong and all that (by the way, SWIM's friends are very old and good friends, but some of them treat SWIM's house and SWIM like crap). SWIM was disappointed by this because he had to stay with them and clean up all the messes. By the time he realized that the environment was going to be a party one, he was already tripping. So he had a good and happy trip, but he never got the same intense hallucination as the time before.
Most of that doesn't have much to do with my question, but hold on... I'm getting there.
About a week after doing acid for the second time, SWIM was at a friend's house when he ate mushrooms. He didn't want to, because after doing acid twice, he loved acid much more than mushrooms and would rather trip acid if he could. Since acid was not available, SWIM's friend convinced him into taking shrooms. Looking back, it was a horrible idea because they had an appointment in an area 30 minutes from where they were. Either way, SWIM ate 2 grams of mushrooms and SWIM's friend ate 3.3 grams. When they kicked in, SWIM immediately noticed and hated the heavy body buzz shrooms give. He tolerated it, but it reminded him again of why he likes acid better. SWIM walked around his friend's apartment (where 4 people live right now) and talked to all the different housemates about random shit. Eventually SWIM went back to his friend's room where he originally ate the mushrooms. He talked to a different housemate for awhile when he noticed his friend was talking like a dumb baby or a mental patient. SWIM went back downstairs and told himself to let his friend go because he knew that he was already done for and listening to people tripping really hard usually makes SWIM trip really hard. He told the other housemates about him. Eventually his friend came downstairs and I was forced to take care of him because he kept saying he was insane and he didn't know what was going on. (Please note SWIM has had many bad trips, so he knows exactly how his friend is feeling and knows how to take care of him as well) SWIM also met another person a few nights ago, I'll call him M. So SWIM and M took SWIM's friend outside to smoke a cig. Eventually (seemed like 6 hours, probably about 2 and a half hours), SWIM's friend started saying things like "Holy crap that was a crazy trip" and trying to look back at the experience as if it were over. SWIM kept telling him it wasn't over and that he needed to enjoy it. SWIM told him about ego loss and relaxation and things of the like. He kept going back into the "What the fuck is going on?" mode again... After bringing him back into reality and literally watching him piece his brain back together, he fell asleep. SWIM finally tried to enjoy his trip, but it was almost over. He had deep creative thoughts and pictured things very easily in his mind. Didn't sleep until 8am, but enjoyed every bit of waking life.
Now back to my question. SWIM's mind when on mushrooms was freaking out a bit, but every time it started acting up, SWIM just told himself, "Yup, these mushrooms do some crazy shit" and almost immediately stopped thinking about having a bad trip. SWIM thinks maybe that the intensity and awesomeness of his acid trips made him realize that everything is only as bad as you want it to be. SWIM feels like he is more in control of his emotions and can control trips as well as anything else. Is this possible?
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