Opinions - Conquerring Steve

[Alexqzilla]

Steve is the name that I've given my doubt, anxiety, depression and lack of confidence my entire life. Every time I truly want something out of life, it feels like Steve is there to tell me it will never happen. Every time I think about what I need to do to feel normal, I hit a mental wall, which we can also refer to as Steve. Steve effects me in every way: Socially, romantically, academically, psychologically, and ultimately makes my life far more difficult than it has to be. I can't love myself. How can I expect other people to love me and appreciate me if I can't love and appreciate myself? Steve has to go. I was discussing Steve with a friend of mine, and he suggested "My Marmoset" use LSD. He has used it before and it's a fun drug, but he's never aimed it at a specific issue and tried to conquer it with the help of a drug. He suggested if "My Marmoset" want to do it, he should put himself in a happy, familiar setting, have a pencil and a sheet of paper, and most importantly, a mirror. Because at the end of the day, Steve does not really exist, he's just me.

And while one would think that since I just wrote that, I must understand that already and therefore already have the problem solved, I can't say that I truly believe it in my heart. I can't just repeat to myself "Steve is not real" because he's always there.


No, Steve is not a real voice in my head, no, it's not schizophrenia, I just refer to this problem as Steve for the sake of simplicity.

What do you think?

Alexqzilla added 18 Minutes and 34 Seconds later...

I guess what I'm saying is "My Marmoset" feels as if a possible solution would be to find a place of solitude and confront himself...

[Panthers007]

First off - read the rules. Especially the rules concerning self-incrimination. The rules here are for real and enforced. As a newbie, you can't edit. So I've called for a moderator help you. The rules are here:
http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/ann....php?f=184&a=1

The person in question would be advised to read up on MDMA and similar. The task delineated in the post would best be tackled from this direction to start with. Then a possible course of psychedelics might be good. But first steps are important to form a solid foundation from which self-exploration would be safe and beneficial to the party in question.

Low self-esteem is a funny animal. Seems those who should feel good about themselves rarely do. While those who feel great about themselves should often crawl away and die.

[Songcycle67]

Steve is often called "The Human Shadow" by psychologists and ecstasy was widely used to help people to face their shadow and come to terms with it effectively during the 70's while MDMA research was still legal.

There are several books and articles available about the human shadow through the internet if you google it. Most of which also relate to MDMA to some degree. Recognizing it is a very good first step, though, as most people treat it as something that should be ignored and buried; leading to lots of complications.