**Swim doesnt want this thread to be a contest about quantity or variety of drug consumption for various reasons, but rather a refelection of perspectives involving psychological drug addiction/craving/despression and the usual negative consequences of unresponsible drug usage.
Swim often questions his drug use and the reasoning behind it. Swim quickly discovered the many advantages to drug use when he first started drinking/smoking about a year and a half ago. This realization that these substances make so many situations more enjoyable eventually lead swim to 'harder drugs'. Swim began to analyze the possibilites of drug use to enhance day to day life.
Now swim is not a shy person at all, and is very outgoing, positive, and all around upbeat and easy to get along with. Being this way though, comes at a cost. The energy spent to always put on a happy face and smile and be someone swim is not so every1 has a good time. As a recreational drug user, swim quickly began to hit the bottle frequently to make everything so much more enjoyable and loosen up. Swim loves to drink up when socializing, or meeting new people cuz he loves the feeling of lowered inhibitions. Swim loves the feeling of not caring what people think (as much) and being himself. Then when swim is just chillin, why not toke a bit to calm swims mind. It so great for everything to just be enhanced and so much more interesting and powerful. Weed is the perfect remedy for boredom and stress. Swims creativity and wit soar while high, and all his anxieties are gone. Thoughts become more focused and progressive.
Stimulants (primarily coke/e/meth) provide fearlessness and euphoria at the same time. Synthetic confidence against any sort of judgement. Everything is so much more simple and swim imagines how awesome it would be if he could feel that way naturally ALL the time. E is slightly different providing swim with the power to express himself and connect w/ others.
These perspectives belong to a person who doesn't have an addictive personality, and is not all about simply "getting high" or "getting fucked up". Sure swim loves altering his mind and perception but thats what psychadelics r for. Swim believes some addictions are not simply craving the high that a substance provides, but rather the craving for a fascilitator in everyday life. Swim recognized this concept as the backbone of the pharmaceutical industry bombards us with drugs daily to cope with our lives, but also recognizes the possibitly to be addicted to how easy everything is on drugs. This thread is meant to be a discussion of drug addiction from a different perspective, the dangers of addiction from a social/recreational users perspective rather than addicts who NEED the substance just to get by. Most addiction topics refer to addicts who fiend for a substance and totally lose their grip on their lives and even reality, but swim would like to know more about the closet addicts. Addicts who are going into friend's bathrooms getting a bump in. Addicts who quickly get 3 or 4 shots of vodka in b4 leaving the house to go2 a get together.
Drugs can be crutches and in swims honest opinion this addiction just kind of creeps up. Thoughts?
SWIM definetly knows what you mean. SWIM is not anti social but he is shy the first 1-2 times he meets people.
But if he is drinking he is not shy at all and this helps him but he only drinks once in a while.
Now about feeling addicted to the feeling, I for one agree. Weed is not addicting in the way Heroin is addicting but SWIM is definitely addicted to it and craves and thinks about it just as much as he thinks about his girlfriend. Which is sad because those are the only two things he thinks about.
agreed. if swim were to relapse it would because of his ocd that is a continuing problem.swim also deals with anxiety. swim thinks that he basically used drugs to cover up these problems all his life. he self medicated. swim only became a fiend because of the psychological and physical addiction that resulted. Swim thinks a lot of people are similar in this aspect.. good point
21-07-2008, 11:07
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