I thought id share my story of hope with you guys. bottom line miricales do happen and it happened to me
i started my drug use at about 13 and it started on the normal things just pot vicoden and alcohol. pretty soon once i hit high school i started doing things like dxm morphine and shrooms. i really saw nothing wrong with my casual use but once i hit 10 grade i was smoking weed all day long, anywhere from 1 gram to a to 7 grams. soon enough i got kicked out of school and started home school. so the daily rutine set out sence all my friends got expelled to, we would drink and smoke all day long and on the weekends i really started heavy drug use. it started with e shrooms opiates and alot of liquer. it go to the point that i would drink anywhere from 20 shots to a 5th and i would black out and only god knows what would happen. Then started coke and crank and ended up losing alot of friends do to some fucked up pranks and mind games. so i startd drinking all day long and doing coke any chance i got. i became so depressed i wanted to die and tried drinking myself to death but i just ended up having a ridculous tolernce to most drugs out there. crank and coke became my only friend and soon enough i had a sctizofrenic break from reality and became so paranoid i left this little place i called earth. life became a blur. i became extremly suicidal and fucking lost my mind. one day an opertuiniy to smake about 8 to 10 grand and i jumped on it. sheriffs arested me the next day. i got out for my court date and i prayed to go for the frist time in about 6 years. i said if you can get me out of this ill quit the drugs quit the drinking and go to church. the next week my lawer called me up. apparently the DA on my case was one of his good friends, so the droped the felony to a misiminor and and took my sentence from 6 months to 60 days of work project.
next came the hard part. my doctor told me at my level of drinking i would have to quit slowly. but i had enough with this fucked up life that i came to hate so muh. so i quit cold turkey, expecting hell i asked my new friends from my brothers church for prayer. I had NO withdraws. this is medically imposible guys! i was doing coke daily and drinking about a 5th a night. mdma was a weekly thing along with crank. this became the happiest time of my life finally being free of my own devils! i was so happy. i used to slur and sutter and could barly hld a conversation, people where always taking over my head but no more. i had a clear mind, new found strength and a faith that would never let me down. chirst became the center of my life and now Im on my way to having a degree psycology. Ive conquered my depression and im always in a good mode. Im free and ive been clean for almost 4 years and in the last 4 years ive dranked only a handful of times. Life is great now and i am finding freedom from all the pain of my history. now i look at my lie and i cant deny god. He has saved me from death and is the reason i live. hope this encourages at least someone.
congrats on your good story and this justs proofs that if someone is sincere about stopping their using and the desire comes from within, it can happen....SWIM has been fighting these demons for several years now with heroin and is coming up on 4 months clean but its been a long battle thus far and still continuing
no....SWIM was originally on methadone 2 years ago, then put on suboxone for 4 months, and then switched to an extended release naltrexone once a month injection shot called vivitrol
20-07-2008, 05:49
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