Opinions - Swim Is Enjoying Smoking

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Swim has started smoking more regularly...and has found that after awhile and the lungs adjust it's like a light-bulb goes on and the anxiety is gone. Although it's easier to smoke not in public, it seems that smoking does help with anxiety. Although Swims is a lifer for cigarettes and warns never puff one cigarette ever swim really wants to keep smoking. Is it possible that Swim might be able to smoke without becoming addicted? It seems to help with the energy as well. It also feels almost spiritual, seemed to attract dogs to swim and feeling more connected with nature. Swim has also experienced really really neat out there dreams since smoking. Swim likes the different brands to choose from. Is this a road Swim shouldn't be going on? It's hard to heed your parent's advice. But now, suddenly, that swim is enjoying it the occasional cigarette wouldn't be too bad. Are they really that toxic?
Swim also wants to cure swim's own cigarettes someday, for fun, and they might be a lot better than store bought cigarettes. Also, though Swim is female gender, swim wants to try cigars and even somewhat likes snuff.
Although not too much. Swim has tried it all that often. Swim doesn't do hard drugs and is over legal age so it's no big deal, other than the idea of getting addicted. Do you have withdrawel from cigarettes?
Swim has noticed that people after they quit smoking seem nicer...so maybe it's not a good idea, but swim doesn't get angry much at all. And it's helping swim to feel more outgoing.