I want to use.

[kaloochi]

I've been an opiate user all my adult life. I stopped the street smak 4+ years ago and used subutex on maintainance for 2+ years. I had an opiate free period for a while after stopping the subs but around Nov, Dec last year i started messing with the brown again. I locked myself away and got the heroin out of my system but could never shake the craving for opiates. From that last relapse to this present day I've been taking sub, smak, DHC, Tramadol and anything that contains an opiate.
I'm trying to stop now and am feeling a bit sick. This is nothing major, I've done some hard core detoxes in the past and i've been bringing myself down to a crumb of sub this morning. It's so mild I'd be ashamed to call it withdrawal!
It all boils down to this. I want to use and it's an overpowering want. I don't want to do this but I'm struggling.

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