I have beenusing alcoholfor four years, whilst very occasionally taking other drugs such as marijuana, excstasy, and coke. I recently went to a rehab centre for the booze, left early and got totally drunk.
After a number of misdemeanours I had had enough and decided to give up for good. I bought 7.5 g of base amphetamine, took it in 2 days, then the next day took another 3g (approx)
On the third day of taking it i started to feel jittery and nervous, paranoid. I thought I could hear my boyf/son talkin to me, even though they weren't in the room.
That night i fell asleep (!) on the settee, went upstairs to bed and woke my boyfriend, telling him i was very frightened and nervous. I kept having hallucinations of people coming in the room, had the idea that someone wanted to kill me. I was petrified.
We went downstairs, sat down and started talking, by the end of the night i was seeing snakes on the door, black clouds, animals etc in the room. I was convinced that someone was coming to kill us and sat terrified behind the door, hardly daring to look around. I was jumping around, killing imaginary sci-fi sized spiders. There were monsters flying at meon the landing.I have never been so frightened in all my life, and my boyf said he has never seen anyone so frightened. It was like being in a real life horror movie. When I awoke in the morning i seriously believed all this had happened to us, I had no idea my boyf was watching me realising I had lost the plot. I hung onto him all night sobbing and praying for dear life.
The next day I was immensly nervous, jumping at the slightest sound, looking round corners. We nipped to the shop and when we came back I saw 3 women in the hall wearing my coats (they were not there). I saw dark shadows pass around the house and heard whispering voices. I saw a shopping bag in the kitchen move alone and saw the shadows of two children waving on the kitchen wall. When I asked my boyfriend if he could hear them talking he looked at me like I was mad.
I truly believed that the events of the 1st night were real, until I thought some more. Then I convinced myself some kind of 'psychic' door had been opened. Whenwe went to pick my son up from school i turned the radio down, i heard his voice...my boyf didn't. I had a conversation with him, he said he was stuck in the bottom of the car, and not to leave him. It was his voice, the way he talked..i was convinced. Then my boyf came out of school with my son! All the way home this voice (just like my son's) was begging me not to leave him etc.
When I went to the shop that night every bin I passed i heard a child's voice asking to be let out. We went to KFC and it was crying all the time asking for food....i became so obsessed with hunting the restaurant for him. The voice spoke all the way home in the car, and that night i saw children's faces in the car.
I realised something was wrong (!) and discovered I was suffering from amphetamine psychosis...I had never heard of this despite the fact I took speed for several years when younger. I realised the whole of the 1st nights episode was in my head..and the rest.
I awoke this morning to the screams of a child's voice asking to be let out. I know it's not real, so I ignored it for so long...but had to go looking for it eventually.
The events of ther past few days have been terrifying and horrific,I haveincluded those I remember most.And I wrote this post as a warning for anyone who may not have heard of the effects of amphetamine. It is particularly common in heavy users over a long period of time, but can also occur after a short heavy binge.
Just be careful guys, don't abuse it like I did. This is scarey shit right now, and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. The wierdest thing is, ok I was buzzing, but didnt have any physical discomfort, I didnt see this coming!
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Edited by: speedqueen
26-02-2005, 10:32
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