WOW . I would really like to give it a try; but Iīm full of doubts (among the other things Iī m full of).
As Isaid, my latest experiences with hallucinogenics , have been so unfortunate that I havenīt touched that stuff in years. Even grass scares me (if itīs good, that is). If as you say , Iboga
is "a very strong hallucinogenic", "not to be taken lightly"; how would it effect a poor ,fucked up, SOB like myself?
For what I understood, itīs not something I could take and then go teaching to my poor, innocent ,young, students, that so much trust seem to have in my judgement. Is it?
Or drive a car, or talk to collegues or editors.
What could I possibly say to my usual victim of choice: my beloved wife. Would she notices anything? Would she need to know?
But specially: is it a viable alternative to this stupid, blessed, methadone
;with wich Irepeatedly tried to get rid of my disgusting vice?
Self prescribed ,self obtained, methadone , freed me of my demons several times, but never for a long time. It has saved my lifemore than once but it has never changed it. Would Iboga be different?
"A very long trip" ? How long does it need to be?
Your last comment I find expecially depressing:
Where the hell can I find "caring people under whose guidance take the trip"?On the fuckinī yellow pages?
I start to think I īll never be able to fit this magic substance into my miserable, screwed up life.
But thanks anyway.