addicted 2 morphine HELP

[Sosplzsum1helpme]

Well i have been taking morphine sulphate (sevredol) (2 X 20mg) 40mg every four hours is what it says on my prescription however I have been takin almost 3 times the dose... so i take (120mg) of morphine which is 6 tablets. And well i have been taking them during to my medical condition sickle cell anemia which mean i have have strong pain at time but lately i have been well owever i have become dependant on these tablets just to get me through the day...

I am In my late teens and it worries me that i cant relax or have a good time without takin these tablets...Without them im bored deflated down and feelin run down emotional where i just feel a weight on my heart.... I have come to relise i dont wanna live like this no more i am happy wen i get my tablets but as they are close to running out and having to go back to the doctors and ask for more worryin shell find out im not due for my prescription for a another week and finally relises im addicted scares me..

[Withdrawl]
Is the worst thing in earth feels like im in hell...I feel restless i cant sleepa and even if i try to sleep and nodd off for a little while i wake up feelin restless and alone in the world.... I often find myself wishing i was like my other siblings which arent dependant..Sometimes i cry coz i just wanna b normal... I dont wanna have to depend on these tablets... And these feelin only occurs once im running out of my tablets.

I wanna come of these tablets but i think its gonna b my biggest battles and struggle to come off them. i just feel so defeated i worry ill spirial down into a depression. I feel weak and vunerable. All this over a stupid pink tablet...

Can anyone offer any experience? Or how they overcame this.. I realise i need to get off them....But how...I dont think ive got it in me...?I jsut need advice how can i get clean. And move on in my life?. ITS THE WORST FEeLING EVER.

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nice post, welcome at the DF; please use "SWIM" to not incriminate yourself

[beentheredonethatagain]

I was getting morphine from a doctor for pain for 2 years and really started to hate it, so I tapered down and now I am MS Contin free! talk to your doctor about this .

[crunchyblack]

Well look at it as good learning experience.You now know the feeling of being addicted to something very powerful. All you have to do is taper your does 1/3 every 3 days till your off of it. During your last few days take Imodium for the shits if needed, and take over the counter pain meds for the body aches. You might even use something to help you sleep. This phase usually lasts 3 days after your last dose Of course this all depends on the ammount and time used and your bodys reactions to WD's. And after you get through it the memory of how bad it was will fade.

[pillpopper96743]

Taper off of it. No other way (and the best way) in swims opinion. Thats how he quit H, but your story is completely different.

[Sportsguy86]

If you will need them for pain management--it will be very difficult.

If you don't really them for pain, then It's definitely do-able. You're young and you'll be fine. I really like your mentality--you are scared and have alot motivation to get yourself non-addicted. Honestly all you need to do (and it sounds simple) is stop taking them totally for a week. It will be an awful week--probably the longest week of your life. You''ll be counting minutes to get through the day. But after you get through it--youll no longer be physically addicted and youll be feeling alot better--and will no longer be dependent. Its up to you from that point to keep it going and dont give in to any cravings. It gets alot easier as time goes on--and after a month or so you should be totally fine.

[Stephenwolf]

Of course there are also many treatments for addictions like Ibogaine ,which has been shown to help with heroin addicts as well as weaken withdrawals, or a person could use Kratom to help ween off of addiction.

[teddybearpicnics]

okay bud i will give you the best advice i can...detoxing from morphine is no easy task. the most painless way would to be a suboxone program. i don't know what your insurance is like but if you have decent coverage it will be covered completely or very close to fully covered. if you don't know what suboxone is, send me a pm and i will give you very informative information...

suboxone is a miracle drug for us opiate dependent people. it is an opiate antagonist, an opiate blocker, and semi-synthetic opiate ::very low in stength::. what it does is act like a key that was put in a lock, and then the handle broken off. that being said the "lock" is your receptors. and the "key" is the opiates trying to jump across the blood-brain barrier. the bupenorphine in the suboxone fills your receptors so that they aren't screaming for an opiate ::which is what they're doing when you are withdrawling:: and the handle being broken off analogy means that once the receptors are filled with the bupe, it keeps them filled, so any opiates that you would ingest e.g. morphine in your case., will just bounce off and not enter your blood due to the opiate blocker. now suboxone also contains a small amount of narcan, which will also slightly help your withdrawl symptoms, but that being said, narcan will send you into worse withdrawls if you take it too closely to doses of your morphine. swim is dependent on heroin, and has a very large tolerance so swim gets sick when awaking in the morning, usually 12-24 hours since the last dose...now everyone is different but that is NOT too long for swim to take a suboxone, some people need to wait longer and swim thinks that is because of the half lifes of different opiates.
i hope this helps you and i feel your pain.
--teddy