Well i have been taking morphine sulphate (sevredol) (2 X 20mg) 40mg every four hours is what it says on my prescription however I have been takin almost 3 times the dose... so i take (120mg) of morphine which is 6 tablets. And well i have been taking them during to my medical condition sickle cell anemia which mean i have have strong pain at time but lately i have been well owever i have become dependant on these tablets just to get me through the day...
I am In my late teens and it worries me that i cant relax or have a good time without takin these tablets...Without them im bored deflated down and feelin run down emotional where i just feel a weight on my heart.... I have come to relise i dont wanna live like this no more i am happy wen i get my tablets but as they are close to running out and having to go back to the doctors and ask for more worryin shell find out im not due for my prescription for a another week and finally relises im addicted scares me..
[Withdrawl]
Is the worst thing in earth feels like im in hell...I feel restless i cant sleepa and even if i try to sleep and nodd off for a little while i wake up feelin restless and alone in the world.... I often find myself wishing i was like my other siblings which arent dependant..Sometimes i cry coz i just wanna b normal... I dont wanna have to depend on these tablets... And these feelin only occurs once im running out of my tablets.
I wanna come of these tablets but i think its gonna b my biggest battles and struggle to come off them. i just feel so defeated i worry ill spirial down into a depression. I feel weak and vunerable. All this over a stupid pink tablet...
Can anyone offer any experience? Or how they overcame this.. I realise i need to get off them....But how...I dont think ive got it in me...?I jsut need advice how can i get clean. And move on in my life?. ITS THE WORST FEeLING EVER.
02-04-2008, 03:41
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