Crazy weekend- cocaine/benzos causing problems

[sky_man]

So, last Saturday SWIM had a rather large argument with his other half over the suspicion she was cheating on him. SWIM may or may not have been right, but logged onto her MSN and the lad in question believed he was speaking to her and said "even if nothing had happened between us I'd still want you to fuck him off". Sounds rather obvious to me, but maybe I'm just that straightforward. They bothed denied it when confronted.

However, SWIM has been suspicious for some time now and this paranoia has probably escalated with some serious coke usage over the last year (at one point helping to go through half a key in five weeks with some friends just before Xmas).

This confrontation with SWIM's other half continued when they saw each other again on Sunday. She left, he felt rather depressed. SWIM then had two valium (of ten 'acquired'). It was 6pm, Sunday, he'd just started watching The Wire, he was starting to feel a little better.

The next memory is it's late Monday night / early Tuesday morning, SWIM was in the hospital, he was screaming for his phone, managed to get it, his other half refused to come to the hospital, the doctors wouldn't let him leave, when insisting he'd discharge himself was told the police would come looking for him. Eventually he subdued. He'd slashed a wrist, no idea how bad, but enough to require 9 stitches. It turns out he'd also had another 8 valium, 10 co-codamol and 10 co-proxamol

When he woke Tuesday morning he 'escaped' the hospital, went home, cleaned up, then went to a friends, scored an eighth of coke and began getting high again, this carried on through till Wednesday, he'd had no sleep and by Wednesday evening he'd had another half a gram of coke.

It wasn't until he woke on Thursday morning he began to take in exactly what had just happened over those few days. The events after leaving the hospital were rather stupid, however it's what happened after taking the valium on Sunday and waking in hospital two days later that SWIM wishes he could remember.

The taking of the remaining valium, the other pills and the slashing his wrist. Apparently he'd also gone driving in his car at 2am Monday but finds this difficult to believe. He has a vague recollection of possibly getting in the car, then getting back out and walking off but, as said, this is vague.

He's now vowed to quit coke and seek help. The other half hasn't spoken to him since, he's depressed, anxious and finds it dificult to resist not going to get high. It makes SWIM feel better and takes his mind off things but knows it's a cause of his problems.

Any advice?