Life and depression

[P!MPJU!C3]

Aaah...I really didnt want 2 go 2 deep in 2 the subject of mind games. I understand that some people get on power trips with these mind games. Its true, u can fuck up people so bad they dont know their front from their behind.

My point is that mind games aint always bad. Thats what i failed 2 get across in my post.

Its a game, and, like u said. u gotta trust urself. Be one step ahead. Otherwise they will get 2 ya. Reading people is easy. Making sure people dont read u is the difficult part.

Hey this reminds me.

Texas Holdem

[Katiii]

short and simple: do this for one month (promise!) and get back 2 me. STOP all drugs. ALL of them. NO DRINKING. NO POT. be completely SOBER. Find some way of exercising. whatever is your thing, if u go to a gym, if u just need to jog, lift some 5 lb weights, or just do 100 situps a day. this gives you some feeling of accomplishment. something to do. dont give me the bs "oh smoking weed every other day is what actually makes me happy" just for an experiment, do it for me. be SOBER. DO SOMETHING. you dont NEED someone to be happy. what i would do is learn a musical instrument. or practice one you know. one your interested in. people with minds like me and you have are passionate musicians. save up some money. buy a guitar. musics not so hard. musichas powers. take the extra step to be beautiful. get yer eye brows waxed. buy cute clothes. wear a little make up. you are what u think u are. If you think u are beautiful, you will be. your mind controls physical things about you also. it is true, proven. You are fuckin sexy girl! fuck what people think. be happy because you know you are. seriously, u know this

[hippie_lain]

LOL..Im a guy(i can still be sexy right?).Well thanks for all the support guys. Im not even depressed anymore(its just hinding now). I started working out and completly quit weed. I still miss my old friends but i refuse see them and let them ruin me again. Ive been doing alot of research on the defensed mechinisms of the mind. Too many will is very hard on the body and mind. Now I realize most of mineand try to deal with my fears/problems. As far as mind games...I just ty not to think about it and hope for good friends.

Hope the dark shawdow of depression has lifted from all of you all. Unforntanaly it has covered me once again. I thought I had found a female friend who I can relate to last week. She is a great person but has a monster crack monkey on her back. Need I say more? I still long for her wherever she may be tonight. I am almost homeless in a big city where I have no one to turn to. The place I stay is where I was robbed and beat up by three guys in the middle of the night. It is a dangerous place and I am trying to find my own apt. I currently got a job through a temp service at six bucks an hour. Well at least it is something. I will be 37 on the 13th of this month all alone no soul mate, kids, or even a dog!!!! Had a pretty rough life it has got to get better. Sometimes I wish I could go to the doc and have him put me to sleep forever it whould have to be better than what i am going through now. For now I just keep going through the motions of life. Lost and confused not knowing what is next. So i walk the streets looking for something I havent found.......YET, so if you say a prayer or do a line keep me in mind......

[hippie_lain]

hmmmmmmmm..."a MONSTER crackmonkey on her back"...you dont need to say more. I wish i could dream forever. I just find something to keep me busy now and my life got back on track.Edited by: hippie_lain