first ketamine experience

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dosed an unknown quantity, was very stressed out and got off work, I
trusted my brother, who is intelligent, and has my respect, to lay me
out lines in reasonable dosages, I told him I wanted to be on a
higher-end effects, so I took 2 of what I were told large lines

went up easy, however drips are different and unlike any other type of
drug I've used... others often sometimes burn, and have a terrible
taste, but ketamine was sort of like burning-hot shap peices of glass
sliding down my throat... quite displeasing... but manageable and well
worth it, the effects are very interesting, I get a general fantastic
body feeling, movement seems more fluid-like and dancing comes very
easily and you can really feel and almost become part of the beat (if
that doesn't sound too rediculous) I become very analytical of
everything and had a propensity to use a lot of hand guesture and
facial expression, I find I am becoming much more this way naturally as
well with continued use of 4-methyl-aminorex... my brother says my
personality has changed very much within the past month or two, but he
does agree that it's more of like my 'inner inhibited side, so I am
just much more expressive of my thoughts, which some people find
interesting and really enjoy... others find weird and sometimes are
even scared, thought it does help to make interesting conversation with
people, and really understand others... however... not to trail off..
ketamine sometimes make me put extended thought into not relatively
important thoughts... while interesting, not very constructive if you
have something in particular to think about... over all, I would use
this drug preferentially in a free evening or social situation... for
purpose of perhaps getting other insight or understanding of thoughts
and emotions and how others interact with them... and not for a
working or serious decision making periods... however they may offer
some good ideas in the way of decision making, nothing final should be
determined in such a state/ the situation should be examined in a
number of altered states... including "normal" state to assess the
series of formed ideas in order to adequately make a decision as to
which could be the best.