With haveing recently indulged in the wonders (if you can call it that) of speed i have noticed that it somewhat has a hold on me with only using through recreational use.
For the last 4 - 6 weeks i have been treated with depression and been prescribed Ciplaophram in 20mg doseages (1 per day) It hasnt been until the last month that i have discovered speed has somewhat helped me overcome the depression to a certain extent, but i know i am becoming more and more depandant on it. As you are all aware, sleep deprivation is a side effect of the use of speed and in some ways i have been pushing my body to see how far i can take it. I managed last week 5 days awake with no real severe symtoms, wondered what everyone elses experiances of this are?! Following a look period awake on speed i have notcied that i dont experiance a "come down" as such, i just sleep for like 2 days and im fine.
I have read previous posts on the uses of Ciplaophram with amphets and it was really interesting with regards the presance of seretonin sycosis, wondered if anyone else had any further experiances of this as its something which i have by no means come close to.
One of the things which is presant during my depression is that i feel that i dont have any worthwhile purpose, i lounge around watching shit tele, smoking and then obviously at weekends go out and party. With speed i get up and do things, even if it is only cleaning my flat over and over again, i feel motivated and have no problem with making up new things for me to do.
Many of my friends think im mad as they are aware of what im like, im not shy about what i do and have never been secretive in my "addiction" if you wish to call it that. They dont understand how i do it and are in some ways amazed by my ability to do it and still stay sane.
Wondered what other peoples experiances are and feedback on mine.
Look forward to the responces.
30-01-2008, 06:25
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