Speed / Sleep and All other Associations

[Oneandonlydicko]

With haveing recently indulged in the wonders (if you can call it that) of speed i have noticed that it somewhat has a hold on me with only using through recreational use.

For the last 4 - 6 weeks i have been treated with depression and been prescribed Ciplaophram in 20mg doseages (1 per day) It hasnt been until the last month that i have discovered speed has somewhat helped me overcome the depression to a certain extent, but i know i am becoming more and more depandant on it. As you are all aware, sleep deprivation is a side effect of the use of speed and in some ways i have been pushing my body to see how far i can take it. I managed last week 5 days awake with no real severe symtoms, wondered what everyone elses experiances of this are?! Following a look period awake on speed i have notcied that i dont experiance a "come down" as such, i just sleep for like 2 days and im fine.

I have read previous posts on the uses of Ciplaophram with amphets and it was really interesting with regards the presance of seretonin sycosis, wondered if anyone else had any further experiances of this as its something which i have by no means come close to.

One of the things which is presant during my depression is that i feel that i dont have any worthwhile purpose, i lounge around watching shit tele, smoking and then obviously at weekends go out and party. With speed i get up and do things, even if it is only cleaning my flat over and over again, i feel motivated and have no problem with making up new things for me to do.

Many of my friends think im mad as they are aware of what im like, im not shy about what i do and have never been secretive in my "addiction" if you wish to call it that. They dont understand how i do it and are in some ways amazed by my ability to do it and still stay sane.

Wondered what other peoples experiances are and feedback on mine.

Look forward to the responces.

[cook_justakid]

swim thinks swiy has a) got the addiction (& perhaps denial of it), or, b) is one step (or speed run) away from losing control of swiys habit

cleaning swiys house is a typical speedfreak move, and yes, swiy will feel good and like swiy is doing something, because swiy is buzzing off swiys head in (the typical speedfreak) repetitive action mode

swiy, if this is what swiy consider recreational then swiy has already gone mad

depression and the use of amphetamines (& anti-depressants) is a call for insanity/ suicide

if swiy is doing 5 day runs then swiy can expect to a bout of living in absolute hell if/when swiy stops; swiys depression sure as s**t ain't going away anytime soon

What do swiy mean "managed"? Anyone could do a 5 day run on off their head speeding. It is not a success.
believe swim, swim has gone on longer without sleep than swiy would want to imagine. madness, it is.

btw swim suffers clinical depression, anxiety disorder, insomnia (before the drugs, & on), & of course, swim has issues with addiction/s.

swiy is bringing on swiys sleep deprivation, it doesn't have to be an issue, it is NOT a side-effect, that would be insomnia.
Sleep deprivation is basically the consquence to bingeing on stimulant drugs, ask swiy- who is in control? swiy or the drug?
PLEASE STOP, do swiy even have the £ to fund the habit?
does swiy do any other illicit drugs? is swiy subject to?

As for swiys depression, well, it ain't going away any time soon at all, if ever it sure as fuck won't go away while you are using speed; if swiy feels speed is a "medicine" for depression, swiy might want to book swiys box room in the loony bin now;
or STOP using all together. jerk it out.

swim cannot be bothered to type more for swiy (at least not right now).
swim wishes swiy the best in booting out swiys taste for speed.

[humdroid]

SWIM think speed is one of those things those with existing depression can fall to.
SWIM's not judging you as SWEIMS in the same boat minus the SSRI's. SWIM put three stones in weight during the speed habit, as speed to SWIM was like a fake anti-depressant, and SWIM noticed hunger and was more enthusiastic about food. People say you cant eat on speed, but SWIM finds the opposite. SWIM finds the effects of speed awful if no food is eaten. It has to be dinners and decent stuff, not crisps or sweets. Meat and veg meal, cereals, cheese, bread, and bananas. SWIM cant eat on E, but comes down of E after it wears off, whereas speed, SWIM stays up 3-4 days max. SWIM has a habit, no doubt, but likes to have as many non-speed days as speed ones, if not more. SWIM needs to come down in order to get the most out of the ups. SWIM noticed mild psychotic feelings, which become annoying after 3-4 days. SWIM usually gets the paranoia and depression about four days after the last bomb. SWIM finds L-tyrosine takes away the post phet depression and paranoia. The only time paranoia accompanied SWIMS psychosis was the last time, and it was odd, because as well as hallucinating someone attacking SWIM verbally, SWIM also hallucinated someone standing up for SWIM-hahahhahahahhaha
SWIM does not want speed amphetamine base to be a permanent part of SWIMS life and is looking for an alternative.
SWIM wants something that will motivate and wake.