How often do you guys think about Ecstasy / MDMA

[6chr0nic4]

ive had a complain about spamming and ill apologize beforehand, but it seems most of my posts are reasonable and I just had to make this thread haha

anywho, everytime after swim drops, for the next month, he CAN"T stop thinking about E/MDMA, thoughts regrading molly or past rolls/ future rolls occur to him daily, it dies down overtime say 4 months after it would be less than the month after, but still aparant

i was wondering if it was the same for others as its highly irritating

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[Lettish]

Swim always thinks about ecstasy. He listens to electronic music (club/rave, etc) all the time and always imagines being in a club full of people on E and dancing the night away. He has pills at home and easy access to them but he controls use very strictly. In a perfect world Swim would take E every night, but no-one should do that. It's too special.

[Petethemeat]

My thoughts on the matter are nearly identical to lettish.I enjoy it immensely, many songs and feelings bring back meries related to it, yet i am very careful with how often I do it.

[Ikku]

every day

It can't be helpful to be so in love with a chemical. Try to keep SWIM out of it except for once or twice a month but he enjoys it a bit more often than that. The magic subsides every once in a while and he takes a few months off. But then he's back.

[entheogensmurf]

SWIM doesn't really think about MDMA before or after unless reciting thoughts from the experience for writing or communicating the adventure to another. SWIM doesn't use X to party so that may be a factor.

[Melalicious]

all the time! swim also listens to hard dance/rave/club/electro music, as swim DJs that music also a little!

swim sometimes hears certain tracks or sets and reminds swim of where and when she was at that moment and usually how much X swim had done! lol

but seriously, its not something swim thinks of day in and day out, every second, but definatly is on the mind alot leading up the weekends for swim!

swim just had her first bender after 6months of nothing, and has not long come dowm, so swim is definatly thinking bout it now!

[BlondieUK]

Swim had this once.. Swim couldn't stop thinking about it for a very long time, and had it not been for the fact swims dealer was out of stock, swim would have bought a hell of a lot.

Swim can't say he's had that craving since.. once maybe, but very mild in comparison. Since then no craving. Really. Except the general urge to party that we all get.

[Stuck]

SWIM can never get his mind off of molly. He invests in 5-htp regularly so he can do it whenever its available. MDMA is hands down the most fun/energetic/social/euphoric/beautiful drug he has ever done.

[BrainMelt]

Swim is constantly thinking about E. Swim is looking forward to doing some this weekend.

[ThizzMonster44]

SWIM always thinks about it.
She thinks about it everyday.

[OzzBozz]

Though SWIM loves rolling, alot. SWIM realizes that MDMA can be nuerotoxic if used excessively... SWIM try's to only think about MDMA 3 or 4 times a year ;-)

[podge]

Swim used to think a lot about MDMA when he first started taking it but not anymore. After about 15 uses found it quite boring and predictable, swim still continued to use it occasionally after that but still never regained the magic.

[experimenter]

SWIM is very much the same way. But he doesn't find it to be to much of a problem, he almost likes it.

[Silentscream]

When swim first discovered MDMA, it was on his mind constantly; he was enthusiastic about sharing the experience and spreading it to all his friends.

However a few months down the line he keeps MDMA to himself and doesnt think about it so much. The magic is still there, but swim doesnt think about it so often.

[thiziswhatiam]

Swim alllways i mean allways thinks about E. just because it bring a feeling that swim thinks everyone should have,i mean E is the Peak of how gooooooood your going to feel in life.ENDOFSTORY. i try to tell people to try it and i think that one day it should be legal so other people will get help from it,because if something like E can Give you that feeeeeeeeeeling then i think it should be that other people can do it....


E Is What It Is.

[6chr0nic4]

looks like its done some serious brain damage to your ability to communicate a thought across, swim doesnt feel like other people should experience E, swim feels that is just an e-tard mentality, to share a false feeling of happiness, yes the emotion is real, but everything is fantasy, reality is not like what it is on E and everyone should recognize that
to look at the peak of an e trip as the happiest one will get in life is pathetic, although it may be true, its not a lasting feeling, compared to the feelings of accomplishment, real love, friendship, peace etc - obtained not through a chemical for a day

doesnt it piss you off that if the day where ur first child is born or when you become married, get that big promotion, w/e that youll experience will only be a fraction of a fake e-peak
i remember swim had just dropped pills the weekend before graduation at a grad party, and when all the grads turned to face our family and loved ones and to throw our hats n celebrate, it brought tears to my eyes because it was sucha wonderful momment and it was so beautfiul, however I wanted to kill myself because the immediate thought that followed was of my trip the weekend prior....

its a love hate relation, to each his own

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[aerozeppelin123]

Originally Posted by 6chr0nic4

doesnt it piss you off that if the day where ur first child is born or when you become married, get that big promotion, w/e that youll experience will only be a fraction of a fake e-peak

That thought has occurred to SWIM before, and he thinks that it is kind of worrying. Although I think that while the actual feeling at the time won't be as intense as being on E, there will be a greater feeling of knowing it's a real event to be happy about, without the nagging thought that the feeling will wear away in a few hours.

SWIM definitely thinks about it every day, it's often triggered by something like seeing a photo of SWIM and his mates on E or listening to a song that reminds him of it. Sometimes it's just a really nice memory, other times it's tinged with sadness or nostalgia due to things not being like that all the time.

SWIM thinks as long as you remember that it's just a drug and not to take the feeling too seriously it's easier not to obsess about it - just think, hey, it was a great time, and have plenty of other sources of happiness.

SWIM also finds he thinks about it a lot more when he's feeling down.

[TMM]

SWIM had MDMA only twice, and since then thinks about it only when discussing it here or with friends. He's felt no driving desire to try it again without specific purpose, although he's not adverse to the idea.

[Greenport]

SwiM doesn't really 'think' of it all the time...Although he doesn't do it any more it did help him through some really tough times. It showed swiM that even in the worst of conditions, we as a whole can find peace and happiness, in ourselves. He does think back to some of his experiences every once in awhile.

[HoldYourColour]

swim could be said to be psychologically addicted to MDMA thats for sure, purely based around the fact that SWIM has chemically induced memories of pure happiness ingrained on his brain, its that simple, that is why the brain tells SWIM that "hey! you should do some MDMA!!!" Its only our higher brain function that says "errr no" we have responsibilities etc, its a dangerous thing if someone has no responsibilities or regard for the responsibilities they do have and and an unchecked chemical addiction.... amy winehouse anyone?

SWIM calls this his fiend, SWIM takes care to feed his fiend every now and then but generally is very good, swim had a bit of a slip lately and consumed on a holy day and regretted it all week, swim is honest, swim loves the stuff, thats the point, but as long as swim accepts it has a time and place, swim continues to have a balanced lifestyle

thats why people should probably never try drugs, once your brain is switched on to a substance, you create mental reward pathways (outside of any physical addiction), its usually only bad experiences or such that can break this impact, for swim its all a bit late, he accepts the come down and it is always forgotten eventually, leaving great memories of awesome clubbing events

swim accepts that as he grows older he will take on responsibilities and this will all be in the past, but swim thinks he will always hold a special place for the chemical

[vikingwizardeyes]

Swim thinks of mdma everyday.
Something will always bring mdma into swims mind.
When it does swim cant wait for the next session.

[enquirewithin]

SWIM hardly ever thinks about it. There are other experiences in life.

[vantranist]

Thinking about it often is one of the first signs of addiction.

Watch you're dreams too... you ever dream about it? Not a dream with MDMA in it but a dream ABOUT you using mdma, you will know, you can just feel it.

[6chr0nic4]

fuck dont tell me that, what basis do u have to make that claim, dont make claims without proof

addicted how, physically? psychologically? help me out bro
i think about getting drunk getting high all the time, yet i can control it, i ultimately always decide when i want to do what, an urge has never forced me to feel the need to do it, i feel the want, but ive never felt the need

well maybe a LIL bit

[saorsa.elegy]

My bunny thinks more about the experiences than anything. The people, the feelings, the dancing. FUN FUN FUN!
When the bunny is saying, "time for more" and it was just a week ago that bunny indulged, i have to lock bunny in her cage. But thinking about the good times is great! At least swiy isn't thinking of something bad.