Experiences - Nvr thought drugs would actualy change me, especialy LSD

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But it seems like they have, swim seems to be very passafist (sp?)

its like mainly when on lsd (or xtc as well as other drugs like dxm) that swim feels why cant everyone be like this all the time? and then it seems like its always because of fighting and violence, which is why swim feels very much like a hippy at that point and seem to be very anti violence

swim also feels like this will nvr happen and its like something is telling swim he needs to go somewere away from this violence, and the most logical solution seems death, and not in a depressed way, more like a very happy death

and on swim's last dxm trip swim almost died, not physicaly, but like mentaly, and it was felling so nice and i was so close but them swims friend seemed to get my attention

When swim thinks of this he seem to think its because of his very violent past and violent past thoughts

swim knows that nothing is guaranteed but can he take lsd, and mentaly die, and would he almost be reborn and no longer have these kinda thoughts? at least not to this extent? Once again swim knows if he did this theres no guarantee it would work

sorry for such a long post