suboxone story: i need help and advice

[imyourlittlebare]

so i dunno. swim uses suboxone. He used 32 mgs a day. Is there something wrong with swim? he didnt do heroin. but he used very heavily morphine, oxycodone, and hydrocodone and the poppy plant. he used so much. i cant stress enough how much my pet monkey used. he sees that someones pet monkey that used heroin uses 8 mgs and wants to cut there dosage. swim has no intention of stopping. He is going to use this to maintain his life because he doesnt want to fall back into using. Swim cannot stand lying to his family and being as manipulative as he is. So he wants no risk of the monster returning for everyone elses sake. On top of that, swim had impulses to kill himself a month after his withdrawal before his second great fall (where swim used again just oxycodone even though he already detoxed). he thought about it all the time and used dxm, oxycodone, and some other medicine to try and get him to stop breathing along with alcohol. swim now isnt depressed and finds things managable. he knows if he went to counseling it would be a very hard long road and swim doesnt trust himself. He would rather use this therapy for the rest of his life rather than risk hurting those he loves, and himself. Is swim in the right here? This has turned swims life around and is giving him a chance for something good he hopes.

[imyourlittlebare]

please. anyone? should i title this one something different? i need some real advice from as many people as will give it to me.

[imyourlittlebare]

now its morning. maybe someone will have something to add for me

[jerbles]

you need to be patient, dude.

but anyway, this sounds alright to me, as long as swiy isn't using anymore (heroin, I assume?).

[Orchid_Suspiria]

Well personally for swim he will probably be on suboxone for the rest of his life if not that some other opiate.Swim knows he will never feel normal or right without it.Swiy is not in the wrong.Some people have been so altered by opiates that it will remain with them til their dying day.This depresses swim a little but he has accepted it.It all depends on what is right for swiy though.I am sure swiy would feel a huge sense of accomplishment if he beat opiates all together and didn't need suboxone anymore at all and swim would be the first to offer his congratulations.Just be patient.