no pleasure

[wykydtron]

You don't really have to read this next part to answer my question:

SWIM has never been addicted to any opiate. That is, SWIM has never experienced withdrawal, but for about 2 years SWIM was an avid opiate enthusiast. SWIM used opiates 1-4 days per week for those 2 year - occasionally taking a week off. SWIM may have not been that experienced since he doesn't believe he ever experienced a nod, but he has IVed heroin. Regardless, SWIM found opiates to be extremely pleasurable. SWIM can't remember a time when he used opiates and didn't have a great experience. However, SWIM eventually became scared he would get addicted or that he was getting addicted - his happiness seemed to depend on them. SWIM also thought his lifestyle was unhealthy and not conducive to a happy fullfilling, so SWIM decided to quit. He changed his diet, began to exercise, quit smoking, and hasn't done any opiates for 2 years. After careful evaluation of the years he spent using opiates SWIM has come to the conclusion that he was happier during those times, and that while exercise and healthy dieting are good things, being a tight-ass is even less conducive to a happy vital life. SWIM thinks such rigid abstinence is more unhealthy than moderate use.

So, SWIM procured a number of percocet, and took about 12.5mg orally, on an empty stomach. SWIM reacts very strongly to opiates - his first time he took 5mg hydrocodone and found it extremely pleasurable and it almost knocked him out. Since, SWIM hasn't taken any for two years he figured he didn't have a tolerance anymore. SWIM felt that the effects were as intense as he expected them to be. SWIM almost couldn't keep his eyes open, and his body felt very heavy, but SWIM found the entire experience to be completely unpleasant. The opiates actually made him feel depressed. SWIM suffers from depression, but he always has, and opiates always seemed to just blow right through it. This, time they just made it worse. Anyone know any reason for this? Could he have lost his ability to derive pleasure from opiate use somehow? Opiates usually make SWIM feel very loving towards his girlfriend, which is one of the reasons he likes them so much, but this time they just made every word she spoke feel like a dagger stabbing him in his brain.