Experiences - extreme depression and LSD

[KBLSD]

lately swim has been so depressed with his life, right now swim doesnt care for living and doesnt care when he leaves this earth, hes not gunna kill himself so please dont get that thought in ur head, he just dont really care about life, its mostly coming from a problem with love, money and, bad attitudes from the people around him, swim doesn't want to get into the specifics because some of the stuff happening embarrasses him. this has lead swim to do something he thinks is wrong but does it any way to dull the pain, he is using drugs to escape from his problems and his doctor has him on meds but he only takes the ones that fuck him up, i would love to move to a new enviorment to be with some better vibes and attitudes but he doesnt have the money to do it right now, also his love is moving across the state and that will probably lead to a break up which hurts swim the most almost to the point of crying swim hardly ever cries, any way swim is losing alot of weight about 10 pounds in the last month and hardly eats, when he not working all he does is sleep and does drugs.

swim hasnt done psychedelics for a long time and just ate a ten strip, swims gunna try and turn his life around tonight with this psychedelic expierence.

have any of my fellow trippers ever had sucess with using psychedelic to cure depression? this is the only drug that makes swim happy so he hopes it works becasue all the anti-depressants swim tried seeemed to make his depression worse, well wish swim luck

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[bloot]

Well if SWIY has used LSD before and it did nothing to cure SWIY depression.. then what makes SWIY think it will now ?

[KBLSD]

Originally Posted by bloot

Well if SWIY has used LSD before and it did nothing to cure SWIY depression.. then what makes SWIY think it will now ?

swim used to does once a week and he always felt like that week that he could resolve his problems and do what needed to be done to fix them, then he took a break and all this bad stuff started happening and he cant seem to face the problems, well swim needs to lay down hes stating to get a little light headed and giggly

[Pino]

Swim had success with MDMA, but he thinks that wasn't as heavy as swiy's problem. Talking on mdma did a lot of good work.
A good tip, really please do!, call someone swiy really like and trust to guide swiy. That will help swiy if he feels bad. Good luck, I hope swiy find some helpful and positive insights.

[Samadhi]

one of the most powerful experiences in swim's life was a sober one. Swim found love and is still in love with that beautiful girl... swim has taken almost any drug that is available and nothing compares to the happiness that swim feels with her.

not to sound cheesy swim is just saying that although drugs have had a very big impact on his life... there are other things in life that are breathtakingly beautiful and the power of an open sober mind is very great if one can make it so

swim is sorry to hear about your problems...

here's a hug

[ima-do-proprio-ser]

mate...
the only solution for this kind of situation is,as you said : escaping.But I don't mean to escape from reality,this would be to fuck yourself even more.You should try an escape to a different environment,as you said.Maybe you are a natural outsider.FACE IT



society is a unilateral,and has eyes only for the mainstreams,the mainstream attitudes,the mainstream opinions,ways of living,aesthetics and shit.
maybe you found out the other side was even better.



ok,maybe not.Then stop bothering and enjoy your life.
good luck,sorry for my rawness x)


enjoy.

[KBLSD]

no worries anymore, i just realized i dont give a fuck about it, im just gunna live my life and do whatever i want with it, theres no reason to be depressed its not going to help me it just makes my life worst and doesn't solve anything, all we need is love, im going to try and not lose my love but i dont know if i can, but if i do ill have to try and find a new one i guess

[ima-do-proprio-ser]

may I be a little intrusive?
sorry.
a little quote from a forgotten german band from the past decades : "love is peace,freedom is harmony"
we need both freedom and love.
when you go and try to bond yourself to love,or even to freedom,however,you finish without the so-called liberty or stability.then : problems

try and do the more you can the things you like,and you will certainly be happy.



blablabla...

[Metomni]

How did SWIY's trip transpire? Peaceful and good SWIM would hope. Good luck on the rest of your journey either way, SWIM hopes SWIY's mood and life improve drastically.

[KBLSD]

Originally Posted by Metomni

How did SWIY's trip transpire? Peaceful and good SWIM would hope. Good luck on the rest of your journey either way, SWIM hopes SWIY's mood and life improve drastically.

well it was way more intense then swim thought it would be the dose was stronger then swim thought, the trip started off horrible with all the horrible thoughts that were going through his mind but he decided fuck that stuff he just spent X amount of dolllars on a ten strip that could of lasted him a long time and ate it all at once he better have a wonderful time, then he decided that being sad and depressed would not help him so after that the trip was great he went on a walk around town unfortunately he caught a cold the next day but hey who cares he will feel better in a few days, he came back from the walk and his girlfriend called so he went over to see her for a bit and smoke a few bowls then he came home at the start of his comedown ate some klonopins and went to bed woke up the next day feeling physically sick but mentally and emotionally great and from than on he feels so much better and is going to start living happy and not let the little things or the big things bother him as much, LSD can turn your life around try it sometime

[Alfa]

I would love to read the future evolvements of this...

[Metomni]

"well it was way more intense then swim thought it would be the dose was stronger then swim thought"

Well...It /was/ a 10-strip...

Though that is very awesome, glad to hear SWIY is feeling much better, the physical side effects are so much more temporary than the mental and spiritual and easier to deal with too. SWIM would like updates on the experience as SWIY gains knowledge/revelations.

[KBLSD]

Originally Posted by Metomni

"well it was way more intense then swim thought it would be the dose was stronger then swim thought"

Well...It /was/ a 10-strip...

Though that is very awesome, glad to hear SWIY is feeling much better, the physical side effects are so much more temporary than the mental and spiritual and easier to deal with too. SWIM would like updates on the experience as SWIY gains knowledge/revelations.

swim will let you know as the days go by and if he is only feeling a temporary lysergic bliss or if his outlook on life has changed for good, but swim doesnt want feel like he did those days so he is gunna do whatever it takes to feel this way for the rest of his life

[KBLSD]

where is my mind? i feel so happy today oh my god im happier today than i have been in a long time i feel like a giggly little girl and im not ashamed to say that i could cry with joy right now, you might not believe me but days ago i felt so bad and i felt that way for the longest time and now im just happy i dont know how something like this could happen ive turned around 180 degrees ive got a lust for life, swim feels like that point during a roll where you feel complete bliss and warm and loved, ive got butterflys in my stomach, swim wants to know how 1000 micrograms can do this to a person, they need to start testing lsd again cuz swim believes it can change the world in a positive way the best anti-depressant with no side effects(except melting walls faces ect lol)that swim has ever had and swim doesnt feel worse on the days he doesnt take it, Thank you Mr.Hofmann

[Pino]

Swim is glad it worked out in a good way Swim was a bit concerned about that. It is interesting to see LSD has some potential for helping depressive people.

[ima-do-proprio-ser]

good. xD

[Metomni]

SWIM hopes SWIY's good mood continues, SWIM himself has also been feeling a lot better of late due to mescaline, the possibility that psychadelics can be used as anti-depressants really seems logical.

[jaydarkside]

While SWIM thinks its probable that LSD could serve as an anti depressant under the right conditions, they also believe that it can very easilly make the mental disorders attempting to be treated more severe at the same time, or in time. Someone i know has done a lot of acid and watched it change not only themselves but their friends over much time and use. Just keep in mind that in my friends observation it slowly changed all his friends in a way that could best be described as "putting them in their own little world where things were they way they wanted"...While this is what some people find amazing about the drug it can also be what casues people's mental condition to deteriorate further....More simply put...every time someone you know gets wide eyed they loose a little piece of sanity for better or worse.

[Desertfox]

i dont see how your linking a change in friends/ lifestyle with how sane the person is.

[KBLSD]

Originally Posted by Desertfox

i dont see how your linking a change in friends/ lifestyle with how sane the person is.

are you calling me insane? by the way swim picked up some dank LSD yesterday and took 3 at had the best visual expierence of his life of lsd it was great swim loves lucy!!!

[bloot]

Originally Posted by KBLSD

are you calling me insane? by the way swim picked up some dank LSD yesterday and took 3 at had the best visual expierence of his life of lsd it was great swim loves lucy!!!

Haha "dank" LSD ?

[Desertfox]

Originally Posted by KBLSD

are you calling me insane? by the way swim picked up some dank LSD yesterday and took 3 at had the best visual expierence of his life of lsd it was great swim loves lucy!!!

I was just saying that jaydarkside has no idea what he's talking about.

[imyourlittlebare]

Depression may be temporarily helped due to the influence LSD has on serotonin levels but for long term change, I think you may have to commit to some long term change rather than believing in a quick fix

[KBLSD]

Originally Posted by bloot

Haha "dank" LSD ?

uhh... where swim lives if its fire drugs they call it dank, weed, lsd, if its good than they refer to it as dank or fire, swim likes dank better

[Pino]

Originally Posted by imyourlittlebare

Depression may be temporarily helped due to the influence LSD has on serotonin levels but for long term change, I think you may have to commit to some long term change rather than believing in a quick fix

But it isn't the only thing that changes. The changed alter perception can also give a different perspective on problems. (As with many psychedelics) Of course, this can be for the better or the worse. So going to a well trained psychologist won't hurt, swim thinks.