Opinions - swidcrn's story with cocaine

[dcrn]

SWIM is starting to have these problems btw himself and coke. Do SWIY think using coke on regular basis is ok..? like 1 gram a week... is that responsible somehow. SWIM started to built tolerance and would do fat lines all day long - but SWIM realises the money he makes half of it or more is spent on yeyo and some bills are ignored, meaning swim choses yeyo over bills which he knows its wrong but he does it anyways.

Is COCAINE a relatively safe drug when done once a week - even once in 2 weeks. When SWIM used to do coke heavily he would just buy an 8ball and have a binge all night long... SWIM things if he doesn't buy a good amount of snow it would be useless - if it's not a few hour straight up-binge.

[FrenchFries]

well, okay here it is straight forward and simple. If SWIY is putting yeyo as a priority ahead of bills, yes SWIY has a problem. Yeah, yeah SWIY can deny it all he wants. SWIY already in his own words said he was putting it ahead of other higher priorities. That's a lack of self-control at play there, sucks SWIM has been addicted to other shit, problems are the same. Next, if SWIY can not control himself already with the Yeyo, then how is it possible for SWIY to use the Yeyo in moderation if SWIY already can't, the answer is that it's not.

[epote]

1 gram a week is a lot of money per month. Just go on a trip and save cocaine for once in hayday man, cocaine is not to be endulged there is no concept of "cocaine satiation" its the very nature of the drug.

also 1gram a week? in swims oppinion thats too much..Swim never averages more than 100mg per week in the periods he uses...(like does 500mg in two days or smt and then nothing for a couple weeks then does it again, then lays off for a month or two etc)

[Fight Club]

NIK is trying to understand your question; it appears that you are asking about two different things:
Are you saying that SWIY is blowing an 8-ball at a time, and that is causing you to fall behind on your bills, etc?
AND
You were wondering if SWIY could manage his habit and use only 1 gram per week, would that be OK?

NIK's experience is that you just can't put that genie back in the bottle. In other words, for NIK, once you start having problems, cutting back just wasn't an option. If he tried to cut back or manage his use, fiending just became stronger than ever until he not only "scratched the itch" but also tried to make up for lost time.

FC

[detroit doll]

SWIM believes that one can cut back to a smaller amount per week if the will-power is there. SWIM had 2 occasions this past year in which she and her boyfriend would easily snort up 2 8-balls per day. But before and now, SWIM's habit was budgeted to no more than 2 grams per week. The amount of cocaine is all determined by SWIM's wages(which is minimum). She finds this to be a decent way to keep the bills paid, the gas tank full, and the habit under more control. And should one run out before payday, then you just have to suffer. Its kind of like not spending all of your money in one place. Of course, this does not work for everybody but its worth a try if cocaine is starting to become a higher priority than yourself or your expenses.

[detroit doll]

SWIM forgot to add that she thwarts cocaine urges by switching up to other substances. Some weeks it is all about pills... vicodin, E, oxycontin, etc. Different kinds of highs make things more interesting, helps make cocaine less of a big deal. When it doesn't seem so great, one doesn't crave it as much.

[dcrn]

SWIM appreciates all the help and good advices. SWIM's drug of choice is only cocaine and weed, so I guess when swim's out of nose candy he'll just roll up that thick blunt and let it spark

[dcrn]

SWIM had some major nose congestions+problems so he decided to leave coke alone for a while, also at the moment he is very unstable financially therefore he can't afford the stuff at the moment which is a good thing. He has been clean for about 2 weeks now, going into third and is currently battling with some depression, and when he's about to go to sleep he can't lay still and be calm. SWIM is just nervous, turning upside down his pillow, switching sides, turning back and forth what it seems to be every damn second, all the jitters and stuff he gets its really not fun. Any way to relax at night ? I can't afford any drug at the moment because of bills, etc so is there anything that will just relax SWIM for a better goodnight sleep ? Thx.

[trptamene]

Does swim have medical insurance and could see a doctor and fill a script at no sig. cost to them?

Sounds somewhat like RLS type symptons which may be indicative of some type of dopamine problem.

[dcrn]

Could be. As everyone knows when they stop coke - brain is asking for more dopamine and is suffering from low dop. levels where you end up with depression - if used for many years users develop severe depression, and other things as well. SWIM likes the clean feeling, a good breathing nose with an OK septum lol ..

[epote]

your central nervous system is fatigued, do light excercise (aerobic type and few light weights), do contrast showers, use ZMA and multivitamins, some arginine/ornithine combo before bed and piracetam in the morning for the next 1-2 weeks, that sould help you recover fast.

whatever you do DO NOT USE SEDATIVES, they will just prolong the problem.

one could also use other neuroprotective agents like igf-1, its a bit controversial but BELIEVE ME it works wanders.

[kniouk]

Swim finds going out for a walk each day and getting some fresh air into his nose, even if it is cold air always helps the system. Also try a glass of hot milk just before you go to bed, works wonders. It doesn't replace the drugs but it all helps with falling asleep.

[dcrn]

Thanks guys. SWIM feels a little better today. Slept good last night with less movements. Thanks again

[fidens]

1-2mg of melatonin is the best sleep aid I've ever encountered. I HIGHLY recommend it.

[AceOvArts]

drink lots of water, no caffine before bed. Also take warm milk and cookies !

[dcrn]

SWIM sometimes has a nice glass of red wine and that just helps him relax and fall asleep faster. SWIM also tried Melatonin 5mg extra strength and it worked fine although Ambien and Lunesta are the best sleep meds available. Too bad you need a prescription.

[dcrn]

SWIM has been using coke regularly for about a year now, if not more and has finally decided to stop using this evil, no good drug. Even tho he promised himself many times that he would stop he would always fail - but this time something is just different. It's like something clicked in his head, telling him to stop. Swim would do coke on the weekends mostly, but if he can afford he would do it 2-3 times a week. SWIM works, pays the bills and gets his coke and is left with $0 in his pocket and that lifestyle sucks. Waking up every morning, chasing that high that lasts for about 15 mins, the risk people take to obtain that drug - the jail time, health problems this and that just got into SWIMS head. This is not worth it. SWIY should also consider quitting because NO GOOD comes out of it except that 15 min high that fades away forcing SWIY to get more drugs. Swim will go cold turkey and will not touch that shit even if he had it for free. It will be hard but at this point cocaine is not worth swims life, swims money, and everything else... SWIM needs to make money to himself and put himself on his high list priority, not street dealers, not cocaine itself and sertantly not some low class, colombian motherfuckers.


Wish me good luck!

[Fight Club]

I wish you good luck. Wanting to quit is the most important first step. Understand that you don't have to do it alone. Don't feel embarrased or guilty if you need to reach out for help.

One thing is for certain. Your resolve will not always be as strong as it is today, and there are people that have been there who are more than willing to help you through the rough spots.

FC

[dcrn]

Thanks FC for the kind words, its very helpful. SWIM also has a friend who is just going to die or end up in jail. SWIM is talking about he's doing E, COKE, H, METH everything he can get his hands on, and SWIM had a long talk with him last night telling him he should stop everything and just rehabilitate himself from all the shit he's using, but he refused. He told me SWIM you can stop but I won't. It totally sucks because SWIM sees more and more people who are just becoming a mess. At one point I was one too.

[JaWill88]

swims been doing coke for like 5 years now. intraveneously injecting or making into crack and smoking it (mostly inject) for about 2 or 3 years. swim is all for you doing this but as much as swim hates to say it (as said above)... your resolve really wont be so strong as it is at the moment. swim can definately say hes been where swiy is. swim knows all of these things to be true as in its a waste of money, possible jail, the high is so short, its just not worth it. and swim has maybe quit for a week at a time when swims motivation was at its highest. thats probably the longest swim has gone since he started. swim does NOT say this to discourage swiy, its only to say swims been there and to watch out. everyday swiy should wake up and think about WHY cocaine isnt worth doing. especially when swiy is having a tough time, gets a craving and what not. many have quit for good and so can swiy. good luck. oh yeah and as for your friend, nobody will quit unless they really really want to, and they want that more than anything else in the world. swim thinks if one doesnt really want to quit then all the rehabs and meetings in the world arent going to do anything. but if one wants it more than anything else, then that person will get it, with or without all the rehab and meetings and stuff. swim wants to quit a little more every day when he wakes up. anyways sorry to go on and on but really hope swiy does it, that would be awesome.

[dcrn]

MOD EDITED : price discussions are against the rules.

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Cocaine was a drug of choice in 60's/70's and 80's where the stuff was pure and uncut when bought. These days people have no other choice but to gamble and spend their hard earned money on a drug so called cocaine that is not even cocaine at all. Street dealers also don't get pure cocaine!! and that is a fact. Even they get a product that has been cut - and many street dealers just buy an ounce at a time or maybe a little bit more. Dealers with kilos don't bother selling a gram or an 8-ball - just simply ounces or bricks. SWIM knows dealers that purchased half a key and then cooked it with other substances re-rocking it and making a full kilo - making them double the profit.

When someone says they are doing cocaine - they are lying to SWIY and to themselves. SWIY is not doing cocaine period. UNLESS you go down Colombia and pick up those coca leafs and make cocaine swiyourself then SWIY'r shit will be PURE, even then not %100 pure. Cocaine prices SHOULD drop down big time because street cocaine is just garbage and people still decide to buy it. Thats why someone who says "I SNIFFED 5 GRAM LINE" and I was fine BULLSHIT - pure cocaine, even a gram if its REALLY pure can instantly kill you - period. SWIM thinks a gram should be at XXXXXprice range because street coke is SHIT!..

please elaborate.

[Cheapstak]

SWIM gets his coke for really cheap and is told how much cut it is and SWIM just purifies it with methods mentioned here. its quite simple.

[dcrn]

the washing and purifying is fine but trust swim - theres more to it.

[Stiney]

lol did someone get ripped off tonight or something?? Whats with all the aggression? Of course cocaine is cut, it always has been, even in the 60s, 70s and 80s, this isn't news to anyone. But like cheapstak says it doesn't take a genius to purify the stuff greatly. I've no doubt some people sell various other things as cocaine but saying " When someone says they are doing cocaine - they are lying to SWIY and to themselves, SWIY is not doing cocaine period" is a bit of an over reaction. Out of curiosity what do you mean when you say "trust swim - theres more to it"?.

[dcrn]

SWIM Wants to sniff that LINE so bad but SWIM doesn't want to sniff that line... SWIM doesn't know what the F...he wants...he is going insane out of his mind. SWIM swore he would quit cocaine permanently and the last time he used was Nov 16th...he hasn't done any since then...but now the cravings are just horrific. Swim is doing everything he can to get his shit together but its hard as motherfucker. he works out, and does all of the shit to keep his mind busy but its very very hard. He was clubbing this past Saturday and drank a little bit than he wanted to do some coke to the point that he paid $50 for a gram to this guy who gave him some very good shit...swim went to his hotel room... chopped up his shit...made a nice line...and when it was time to sniff REALITY CHECK kicked in...swim then blew that line on the floor and the rest of the gram threw in the toilet and flushed it down ..just lost $50 on not even using it..swim did taste it...a little pinch and that was it...whenever swim has a good time or is at a club he wants yay...he would do yay but is scared about his hyperventilation syndrome that coke caused him and whenever he's using it he gets shortness of breath and has to breath with a plastic bag over his mouth... thinking he wil die...THIS IS ONE MAIN REASON WHY SWIM QUIT COCAINE...IF IT WASN'T FOR THIS... HE WOULD BE DOING IT..SWIM LOVES THE HIGH COKE GIVES HIM...HE USED TO KISS HIS GRAM BAGGS BUT HE JUST WANTS TO QUIT...AND HE HAS BEEN CLEAN SINCE NOV 16TH..

ONE SHOULDER SWIM HAS DEVIL AND ANOTHER ANGEL... SO FAR I'M WITH ANGEL....BUT DEVIL IS JUST CALLING ME INNN