Ecstacy (mental addiction)

[Wittin]

At the moment I have been doing Ecstacy for 3 weeks, in total i have already done 12.5 pills over a total of 5 nights



1st - 2.5pills (1, then 1.5 three hours later)

2nd - 2pills (1, then 1 one hour later)

3rd - 3pills (2, then 1 tree hours later)

4th - 4pills (1, then 1 one hour later, then 2 one hour later)

5th - 1pill (last night)



After doing research i have discovered that MDMA is not physically
addicted, although I think about it ALOT! Originally I planned to try a
single pill once and try them again new years eve, this has quickly
changed to multiple pills every weekend... I am currently planning to
do 6-8 pills on new years eve. I am conciously realising the errors in
my ways, but they are far too tempting!



How long do you think I can carry this on for untill I begin to build
up a strong immunity, and begin to notice the long term effects?



If you are wondering how or why I am doing so many, it is simply
because of the availability of ecstacy in my area (£2.50 a pill). I am
yet to have had a strong come-down yet, why is this? is it just simply
too early?



Finally, has anyone experience real difficulty in kicking the habbit, I
don't want to find myself in a trapped situation where I cannot
stop-even is it is vital i do!