Experiences - Past experience and a question about chewing fresh salvia Divinorum leaves

[Esmerelda]

Hi there

I'm new. Nice forum

About four or five years ago swie had a lot of experience with enhanced leaf (10x and 20x if I remember correctly). She didn't enjoy it but through some sort of masochism seemed intent on persisting.

All of her experiences were infused with some idea of eternity. When her sense of self wasn't completely lost she had the feeling of the experience having gone on for all of time (although she wasn't aware at the time of being on SD and was barely aware of concepts such as herself/time etc - it was more a sense). Along with this was the idea of mundanity/monotony. So the combination was an eternal monotony - the sense of being part of the most tedious action imaginable, which had been repeated for all of history and which would be repeated forever more. Really to be honest it was hell! But for some reason she didn't stop.

Then one day after taking Salvia she had an anxiety attack (as she commonly did. Yes I know - any sensible person would probably have stopped by now!). As the anxiety subsided she realised there were some fundametal things wrong with how she was living her life. She knew she had to start to let go of these. The next time she took Salvia she was again overtaken by the sense of utter tedium. But it was different - it was as if she now knew something that would end the cycle, and was able to step out of it. There was a freedom before she returned. She took Salvia one more time and although she was in the same 'World', she was utterly free of the eternally trapped feeling and it was an amazing experience.

She hasn't taken Salvia for about four years but her life has changed for the better as she was able to let go of certain things that needed letting go of. However she now feels it would help her again.

She believes chewing the leaves in the traditional way would be a better approach for her this time, and would like to hear of anyone's experiences. She has about 15 plants which she's been growing over the last few years, so has plenty of healthy leaves.

I did a search of the forum to see what people had to say about this but most people seem to talk about chewing dried leaves. Does anyone have any experience of chewing fresh ones?

Swie is going to spend a while preparing for it this time and go into it with an idea of what she is hoping to find out. I'll let you know how it goes .

Thanks people