Health - An experience of DXM use. Input on long-term issues appreciated.

[Deadend66]

A note I found in a park. With the mention to post it somewhere on the internet.

The first time I took DXM was about a year ago while I was in the peak physical condition of my life. I was working out almost every day and had become pretty strong. One night I decided to try DXM so me and my freind each popped 10 pills. I'm not sure of the mg. The night I took it I had a huge ego trip. I don't know what else to call it. I felt like I was the strongest man on earth and ran in 100 meter bursts while taking huge drags of a cigarette. I thought it was awesome that I could run so far so fast while smoking. The next day I went straight back to lifting with no problems.

My later experiances were a little more rough. I had a sergery that put me out of comission for a while. I wasn't able to lift for a very long time. I was very depressed after the sergery and figured I would drown it with mind altering drugs. So about three nights after the sergery I stole a bottle of DXM and downed it. I dont remember how many where in there but I remember the pills were 30 mgs each. I tripped to pink floyd the entire night and woke up the next day and decided to do it all over. I continued my little habbit for about a week untill I had a really bad trip peaking at 800mgs. I remember hating it very badly. The next two days I was feeling very disoriented and depressed. It felt like the high never ended.

My last DXM experiance was with my sister. We were bored and both decided to do DXM together (her first experiance). This was by far the worst trip of them all and the most horrible I've ever experianced. We each downed two bottles of the same 30mgs pills. It hit me almost immediately but, didnt hit my sister at all. We decided to forget it. So I tried to fall asleep and heres where it gets nasty and my "nightmare trip" began. I remeber being terrified that my sister had taken too much and that she was going to die. I wanted to pray that she would be okay but was afraid that if I did the "demons" would know she was vulnerable and kill her. She walked in my room at about 5 AM crying because, she had woken up confused and high. Having her burst in the room crying did not go well with me after being afraid she was going to die all night. All and all not a fun experiance.

So this about sums up all my DXM experiance. Is it possible that there are lingering side effects from my DXM use? The only reason I think this is because, ever since these dxm trips it has been difficult to focus on things I used to love. Video games for example have lost their appeal. I can't seem to become immersed in the world I was playing in like I used to. Even the most fun games seem pretty dull. It has also become difficult to breath most of the time. Not sure if that's related. Seems funny but this is really the only reason I have to think DXM has had long term effects on me. Physical things I still love to do.

I certainly am never going to take DXM again. I just hope it's not too late.

It has been about 3 months since I have last taken DXM. Forgot to mention.

Another thing I forgot to mention was one of the times after my surgery I mixed the DXM with Oxy that I had been prescribed.