Spiritual - The N2Onion

[Tortoise]

Swim is relatively new to nitrous oxide and has only been using up to 3 chargers worth of N20 in one session. In his 2.5 weeks of exploring nitrous space he has found it to be quite remarkable. Interstingly, the nitrous experience has changed significantly for him in such a short time.

Initially, all he could do was marvel at the obvious sensory effects of the nitrous but was dissapointed by the lack of any deep, insightful experiences. Now, no matter what his mindset is, he simply cannot avoid profound and remarkable insights when using any more than 2 chargers, even if he is trying to avoid them and just wants to experience the sensory pleasures of nitrous. It just isn't possible. Nitrous oxide is a profoundly deep drug.

The thing that he finds most remarkable however, is the fact that with each Nitrous experience he discovers an extra layer of depth to the universe. What tends to happen is that when the nitrous hits him, he relearns every profound insight that he learned the last time he was on nitrous; where essentially one insight paves the way for a new, bigger insight over and over again in what seems like a very logical and natural sequence of thought. It's just like layers of an onion, but just when he reaches the same level of depth as his last experience and he thinks there couldn't possibly be another layer of profundity, sure enough, one is revealed to him. Each time he does nitrous, he discovers one new layer of the onion. The N2Onion.

This is as frustrating as it is remarkable, as each nitrous revelation tends to undermine the importance of the last, making it seem shallow in comparison. It's also frustrating because he finds doing nitrous to be much like trying to climb over a wall that keeps extending itself whenever one is within reach of the top. One day, he hopes to smash right through that wall, and he'll keep on trying until that happens.